Wonderful Gift

This is the video that can warm my heart every time i watched it. Thanks for the director who had created such a wonderful video.
Hope, is where it begin.

I miss you so much.
Every time i went back from meeting you from Kuching,
i would cry.
Like now.

I miss you a lot a lot.
A feeling that is indescribable.
i feel like wanna stay in Kuching to be with you.
So that i won't suffer the pain of missing someone that i love!

• Take into account that great love and great achievement involve great risk.
• Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
• When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
• Follow 3 R's: Respect for self, respect for others and responsibility for all your actions.
• Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.
• When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
• Open your arms to change, but don't give up your values.
• Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
• In disagreements with the loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.
• Remember the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

Spend some time alone every day.

It's been so long, long enough to let me forget that kinda feeling.
I can't figure out what is the problem at first.
but then think carefully, it sounds familiar.
It was worrying.
That really makes me loss.
Tears well up my eyes when i realized what's wrong with me.
I put on sun glass when driving to cover my red eyes.
Sitting alone at the corner of the round table when meeting.
Trying to focus on what the president was talking about.
Sneak away after the meeting cause afraid been call to go lim teh.

I have no mood at all.



I need sleep.

久违了的 不好受

到底把自己坦诚摆在他面前是对的吗？

我重视他，所以把一切都告知他。

是因为这样吗？
所以他也用了好长的时间来评估我们的感情？

知道他是一位在感情上不马虎的人，更可以称是挑剔。
我还是告诉他我的不好。
原因无它。
就希望他是在没有充满不公平的情况下做出他的决定。

今晚也一样。
我觉得我应该让他懂我的问题，我的想法，
而不是把自己丑陋的一面给藏起来。

可能让他知道这些真的会影响我们的感情。
可我不管了，我宁愿他早知好过最后一个懂。
原谅我的自私，因为我不想自欺欺人。

临别前，我听出了你那久违了的冷哼。
心也跌入谷底了。
我做错了吗？
还是根本就是错误的开始？
还是 是我想太多？

09.09.09

I had thought of this date 09.09.09 several of times 3 years ago.
i knew that i'm gonna graduate in 2009.
And i knew that this 09.09.09 will only appear once in my life time.
So i'm gonna wisely use this special day to do some special things!
That was wat i thought 3 yrs ago.

But today i had no feeling at all.
I even forgot about this 09.09.09 until i received some messages from friends.
i didn't do any special things cause i'm suffering from a sprained ankle.

Thank God for not giving me any opportunity to look back for everything.

I never thought your leaving will bring any impact to me...
But u did!
It seems like not only me had changed u.
You are reside in some part of my mind today.
Hopefully only today.

Ikan Belik Belik

Office life is not as easy as what i thought.

You, Ikan Belik Belik!

I served u all the hotels' quotations tat u need,
Arranged all the meals, tea breaks and accommodation,
Informed all the sites' workers bout the seminar and
pleaded them to come, enticed them that everything will be provided by the company,
food, accommodation, fees...
all u need is just to bring urself there.
And making appointment to visit the hotel's conference room and
bargaining bout the prices,
in the end u told me to just cancelled all this,
u only want to rent for the conference room,
no accommodation will be provided for any of us.
Asking me to requo from the hotels again.

Could you pls clearly make up ur mind before ordering me to do my job?
What is effectiveness?
Spending double of my time to do this "everyone reluctant to go for" 's talk?
Or waiting for 3 of u to debate and comes out "bosses" decision?

I'm just consuming a very very tiny part or ur earnings,
yet u seems like squeezing me to give u everything.