I had my birthday here alone with myself. Not entirely alone, i had received a cake from Miri 2 days before and i had another mini cake from Sharon 2 days after. I attended ISO 9001:2008 internal audit course on my birthday. It was an useful and interesting course, if, you can manage to understand it totally. For me, it is new and kinda complicated. Hope it gets clearer when i use it on the job training.

I started to use to the hectic working life. Realised that i have no time to really getting myself alone. Having OT this 2 weeks. When i went home the roommate was there, have my shower and dinner, then JL would call me, then time to sleep. I have no time to myself. I have no time to read.

By the time i wrote this, i still have the无奈feeling. I cannot change anything here but only my own thinking.

I will move again. I saw the landlord trying to peep on his maid when she was showering. There was a hole on the plastic door of the shower room. It terrified me at first. But there is not much i can do. I can only use blue tab to tab the hole everytime i shower. I skipped to shower in the morning and choose to shower only when the landlord was not at home. From panic to calm, now i can act normal at there. I told my roommate few days later. We decided to move out together. But is hard to find a suitable room with affordable price. My roommate is kinda 胆小's gal. She would rather keep the secret even if she move out. But i told her, i will tell the landlady, the agent, and the other tenant in that house when i move out. The landlady's still holding us one month deposit, if we want to move out, we need to give one month notice. My roommate is not dare to let the landlady know that we are going to move out together. With her scare here and there, it is hard for us to move out together. But without her moving with me, is hard for me to look for shareroom. At here, grouping two person  to share a room is easy than one person to look for shareroom. Am still looking for room. I hope that we can at least move out in August.

I had my friend book the cny ticket for me. It costs me RM1.4K. So numb to spend the money. Again, there is nothing much i can do. I search all the tickets around that time, and all costing me at least RM1.5K. I have insufficient RM in my Maybank so i called back to ask for help, then my dad complained: Working in Sg already still not enough to cover myself. It hurts. I told him, i did not go to JB so i cannot change the S$ to RM to deposit it in MBB. At the same time i know he was right too. I had only received 2 months salary and it is true that i am able to cover my daily expenses only at this moment. As there are some expenses that i cannot control on. Like the agent fee (the more frequent i use the service of agent to look for room, the more i need to pay. I need luck to find room without agent, so no choice), the medical fee for dermatologist (getting here making my acne problem get worse), and some expenses on food and shopping to cheer myself up (the only way to really cheer me from this sick place, i know this is an excuse but sincerely if i wanna take good care of myself, i need to). You guys still want the carefree ping ping right?^^

Life is sucks. But still wonderful and worth to live for.