My boss is going to resign soon. So basically from now on I need to be independent alone in all the stuff. They will get a HR Manager to replace her. But my boss said by that time, my workload would be much more heavy cause a manager normally work with mouth. And I work with hand. Is it a blessing from Him? To train me really hard. Am I supposed to say that I am a lucky gal cause I just barely be here for 2 months and it seems I need to catch up everything. I am freak out. Especially when dealing with my weaknesses. And what can I do now is just keep moving. Thought I am afraid and missing at times but I have no choice, I need to move on. Lord, can you hear my weary visible voice?

Thing comes together with him having a huge turning point in his life. I have no choice either but to accept the truth that there are His plans on me, to know him in this timing. I wonder at times, what is the purpose to let me know him? To give a hand to help him pull through all the hard times? To test me again in a relationship attitude? Or some other reasons that I might miss out?

I need true happiness. The one really comes from the deep of my heart, the smiles and the tones that are really implying the real me, instead of me forcing myself to be happy. Is grateful I know that I need to learn on. If I am grateful, I won’t be so bother.