This is the 1st time i read over the 6 pages letter than i sent to him. It doesn't hurt like last time anymore. But still made my tears well up. What makes me do this? Because i have meet up a guy recently. Kinda ironic, he's like my character last time in previous relationship. And i'm afraid he would get hurt like me. Though i told him about my worries.  But the past kept haunting me. And we are so far the distance. How am i gonna explain all this to him. I wish i could let him know all my pass so that he could understand me more. But there are too much i need to tell then. And i'm not sure do i need to let him know every detail? I don't want him to feel like i used to be so pity, in my relationship. Like what everyone would says. But i hate to be not truly been known, by him. I want him to know everything, again, i don't dare. Too many to concern. One think that shocked me is i'm afraid not been trusted again. I really afraid he don't trust me like what he did, when i did try my best to tell everything and hoping it would be appreciated, then he making me badly disappointed. I so don't wanna dig back all the bad ones...

It's not the time to let you read this.