I dislike driving at night!

I had night driving phobia!
Especially when i need to reverse my car.
Or when i drove pass some places that were lack of street lights!

My favourite time now had become my nightmare...

Thanks for My Almighty GoD.
He provide everything that i needed.

I went to shop alone tonight,
to buy presents for my friends and colleagues.
I have no idea at all what should i buy for them.
But before i went home, i managed to buy 5 presents!
Without long thinking cause when i looked at the presents,
i know that those are the gifts that i wanted to give them.
Meaningful and affordable.

I also received a new from my church's friend,
he said he'll sponsor 1/3 of my fee to Indon missionary trip!!
What a big surprise for me.
I was so so happy...

And i promise,
One day i will sponsor those who needs my help,
just like how the way my friend did it.

Thank you so much!
I know He always with me. Always.
No matter what i did.

Jingle bell jingle bell, jingle all the way.....
Its gonna be fun to celebrate Christmas with my colleagues.
But i'm afraid i can't make it on that day...
It's my 1st time to involve in decorating Christmas stuffs, wrapping Christmas present (just some empty boxes), hanging those little little bling bling stuffs on the Christmas tree...
How i wish one day i can have a Christmas tree that is decorated by us.

Getting more and more pimples these few days...
Stress ka or hormone problem??
Please ignore the pimples on my face when meet me ya...

Flowers for wedding.
Photo doesn't look nice.
But the real 1 really nice leh~

I really like my cybershot k800i.
It makes the pimples gone.

Attending colleague's warming dinner to night.
Met one of the x staff .
Her baby was so damn cute!!
When he was crying, he didn't make any sounds.
Just wrinkled his face and tears swimming in his eyes...
I told my colleagues that when i looked at the baby,
i felt like want to have one.

At the moment, my colleagues began to laugh at me.

~.~

I wanna out to buy something.
But i'm lazy to drive.
I wanna watch New Moon.
But nobody can company me.
I wanna share my moody mood.
But end up i need to listen to theirs.

what's wrong with me?
Who am i?
Tell me what should i do?
Where is the simple me?
Life isn't simple. ReaLLY.

I know that i should get ready for the mission.
I should focus on that.
I should fully prepare myself for the journey.
I should't let other matters to mess my mind.

不要爱上我

是不是我们都太冲动
压抑不了寂寞
这样的关系到底算什么
我竟然会感动

相信你会为爱往前冲
而我没有把握
暧昧的关系到底算什么
好怕你爱上我

怕你爱上我
不要爱上我
我眼眶的泪
闪烁在美丽的黑夜
却无能为力呀

怕你爱上我
不要爱上我
我给的不多
请你原谅我的脆弱
让你我拥有自由

If you judge people, you have no time to love them. Mother Teresa

In a day, when you don't come across any problems,
you can be sure that you are travelling in a wrong path. Swami Vivekenanda

If someone feels that they had never made a mistake in their life,
then it means they had never tried a new thing in their life. Albert Einstein

Never break 4 things in our life: Trust, Relation, Promise & Heart
because when they break, they don't make noise
but pains a lot. Charles Dickens

Three sentences for getting success:
Know more than other
Work more than other
Expect less than other
William Shakespeare

If you win, you need not have to explain..
If you lose, you should not be there to explain. Adolf Hitler

If we cannot love the person whom we see,
how can we love God, whom we cannot see...
Mother Teresa

I will not say i failed 1000 times,
i will say that i discovered 1000 ways than can cause failure. Thomas Alva Edison

Everyone thinks of changing the world,
but no one thinks of changing himself. Leo Tolstoy

Believing everybody is dangerous,
but believing nobody is more dangerous. Abraham Lincoln

刺猬-温岚

最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单 是寂寞或
悲惨 一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上 一片无
声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上 一片无
声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还
傻 刺猬的坚强全都是假象

我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

confession of a daughter

When i was big enough to remember my childhood,
You never hug me.
When i need your signature on my result book,
you were not there,
I am the 1 learning your signature to sign my brothers and mine result book.
When my mom needs you,
you were not there with her,
I am the 1 carried out all the house chores before i went to school.
When i get good result in any of the public exam,
you never say good to me,
you only complaint why not prefect result.
When i answered back your order,
whole family would be in trouble.
When my mom complaint about you to me,
i would smile and said just used to it.
When you are missing something,
whole family have to stop their work to look for you.
sometimes you would blame on us simply without any reason.
When you need help,
we all must help you, no matter we were free or not, willing or not.
When you lose your temper,
we all have to tolerate you, you were always right.
Even though you scolded me by using dirty word.
I'm numb.
But marks were there.
Anywhere i could hide myself a while?

Raining day.
Nice weather to sleep.
I like it.

心是空洞的。
每天过得像是行尸走肉。
面具是换了一具又一具。
到底还要带着面具多久才能做回自己？

DECEMBER=WEDDING SEASON
表姐今晚请结婚喜宴。
羡慕两个词由心而发。
渴望写在我眼里。
心酸往心里努力的吞。

祷告经文

大有能力的主： 　　
感谢赞美你，因为你是鉴察人心的主，知道我们灵性和身体的一切需要。求你怜悯我们，往往有时候，我们心灵固然愿意，肉体却软弱了，灵性上退步了。求主的灵感动我们，使我们热心爱主，儆醒祷告，多读圣经，常常参加聚会，多与弟兄姊妹们交通，靠主得胜一切，使我们从你那里得着能力，疲乏的重新得力，软弱的变为刚强。我们的罪过，求主遮盖；我们的疾病，求主医治；我们的难处，求主挪开，使我们的身、心、灵都健壮有力，作盐作光，荣神益人。奉主圣名祈祷，阿们。

审判万人的主： 　　
我放纵自己的私欲，违犯了天父的旨意，所想的、所说的，所做的，都有罪过。我得罪了慈爱的神，干犯了神的盛怒。求圣灵光照我，感动我，使我为罪、为义、为审判，自己责备自己。求主治死我的旧人，把老我的邪情私欲、自私自利、骄傲自满、自以为义、自高自大，钉死在十字架上，与主同死、同埋葬、同复活，使罪身灭绝，不再作罪的奴仆，让主的生命在我心里永远作主作王。求主大能的手，帮助我胜过钱色的诱惑、今生的忧虑、世俗的缠绕和一切肉体的恶行，完全顺服圣灵的引导，每日的行为都与蒙召的恩相称，过得胜圣洁的生活，做一个言行一致、表里一致的基督徒。奉耶稣基督的名悔罪。阿们。

幸福

我说啊，
幸福是
当早上醒来时发现还能呼吸，还看得见，还听得到，还感觉得到周遭的一切。
幸福是
当下雨天时，还能有车驾，看着窗外的路人狼狈的模样，突然觉得——太幸福了。
幸福是
当打开衣橱时，不用用太多的时间去翻查，就能拿出自己喜欢又舒服的衣服穿。
幸福是
虽然每天穿着同一双鞋去上班，可是从来没觉得那有什么不妥，因为心是满有安全感的。
幸福是
能尝到各式各样的食物，不一定是要美食，只要是能咽得下肚，又暖肚的，当下真的会很感动。
幸福是
能花钱去做自己想做的事；去脚底按摩，去买任何爱看的书，去买衣服，去旅行，去买礼物送给喜欢的人。
幸福是
能给家人家用。
幸福是
能开怀大笑，不理他人眼光。
幸福是
能在心里随心所欲的有自己独特的想法，那是别人永远也无法干涉的。
幸福是
能躲过一切的试探，能清楚知道自己要的是什么，能很明确的告诉自己及别人哪些是自己所要的。
幸福是
能在自己发现做错时，能及时抽身。
幸福是
能处处为别人着想，虽然回来的没几个好的，幸福的点是学了一堂宝贵的课程。
幸福是
在对感情迷惘时，保持住单身。
幸福是
不拿过去的错来一直让自己活在恶梦当中。
幸福是
还能再来一次。
幸福是
能有狗陪住。
幸福是
通过电话分手后，还能边看戏，边吃零食，还能压抑住悲哀。
幸福是
看见别人能幸福。
幸福是
我有家人。
幸福是
我有缺陷。
幸福是
我会哭。

Paradox

I'm afraid of being unaccompanied.
I felt lonely especially when i was out of order.
I'm not as okay as what i said.
I miss my hyper-laughs.
I miss my simple life, with "i live the way i lived".
I miss those nights surfing until midnight, taking lots of quizzes at facebook.
I miss the time i'm crazing on books and sleeps.

Things out of control, i can't take it anymore.
I started to swing.
And i realized i've dual personality.
I want someone that can secure me.
Someone that i could barely hide myself.
Someone that i could bare my heart to.

Yet, i'm afraid of losing my freedom.
I don't wanna put myself in such a serious situation.
I can't commit yet.
At least not now.

But how am i gonna tell to others?
Telling others that
"Hey man, i'm sorry, i can't commit with you, but i like you, can we just be like this?"
I don't even need to tell this out people already making assumption that
"i am a playful gal, so dangerous, unstable, tempting...like i never have a chance to led a virtuous life, being a wonderful mom!"

I'm just not ready.

Just not yet ready!

I DON'T WANNA LIVE MY LIFE ACCORDING TO COMMON CUSTOM!

AND FOLLOWING THE PUBLIC MORALS ONLY

BUT NOT FOLLOWING MY HEART!

Can anyone really understand it????

I'M JUST..

I'M JUST NOT YET

READY.

我宁愿不结婚，也不要嫁错郎！

爱情，讲究的是：天时，地利，人和。
相爱的缘分，除了是找到适合自己的对象，还要有适合彼此的时机。
爱情来的太早，或太晚，都不是时候。
而感叹自己和缘分错过的同时，
其实应该多想想，自己在哪些方面努力不够，
能够在错过之后，找到过错，检讨该进，才会有成功的可能。

劈腿其实是让一个人无法专注于唯一的对象，
去做完整的感情投入与精神付出。
脚踏两条船，是永远无法让幸福海阔天空的，
于其劈腿，宁可回到一个人的独木舟，千山万水，
无愧于自己想爱与被爱的一颗心。

遭遇感情的瓶颈，双方要积极沟通，寻解决之道，
谁都不该浪费对方的时间，让对方耗在一旁空等。
万一努力过了，还是没有共识，就趁早了结吧！
别浪费自己及人家的青春！FIRE～～

婚姻的吊诡常常在于双方决定相守一生的当时，感觉都是对的，
一旦长时间相处后，感觉便慢慢走了样。
这时候别怪对反隐藏很久才露出狐狸尾巴，
也不用哀叹自己眼睛koto sai，
而是有太多的因素，导致自己改变了看法，
或是影响对方改变了做法。

婚姻不是儿戏，
应该是双方在非常理性的情况下，
所做出的成熟抉择，
而不是匆促之间的决定，
不是为了成全任何人，
不是为了同情任何人，
不是为了逃避任何人，
不是为了应酬任何人。（好大方啊你！笨！）

选错对象了吗？
有时候，
我说有时候，
错不在自己，也不在对方，
或许是因为时间改变了一切。

这时，两个人决定错身而过，
反而不一定是错的决定。

终于给说出来了！
真的是不吐不快，
一吐就爽！

开始是真的怕伤到人，
可又觉得很对不起自己不把自己有的小知识与人分享。

再也不会罗嗦咯。。。

夜

为什么会发生在我身上？
为什么让我遇见你又从我身边带走你？
为什么让我遇见你们，发生这种际遇？
为什么我遇到的都那么复杂？
为什么偏偏是我？
为什么？

我一点都不觉得好。
一点也不。
相反的，我很难受。
好难受。

你的讯息神出鬼没，常让我的心不寒而栗。
我不喜欢你。甚至是有些怕你。
我不想听见你任何的消息。
可我总是心里很不安，不安是因为我懂是我造成你这样。
可想想，我从来没给过你任何一丝丝的机会。
恨当初不该对你好吗？
对人好难道不对吗？
至今你已离开了为什么就不要放过我？？
你还想怎样？
说了祝福我，为什么还一直讯息不断？
我领了，真的领了！

对你真的很抱歉。
因为喜欢你所以一直做些不理智的事。
公司里遇到的种种不愉快，谢谢你陪我度过。
不开心时你会问做么。
告诉你了你会想尽办法把最好的解决方案给我，
虽然不是都能用到，可心里很感激你的用心。
现下只有与你是最好谈的，几乎是一个鼻孔出气。
遇到被人为难或难堪是，你会帮我解围。
虽然是以你那特殊的方式，虽然没帮的了多少，
可还是有在我心里黑暗时点了一盏温暖的灯。
谢谢你满满的早餐及美禄和巧克力饮料。
有些习惯及依赖了，
你那熟悉的背景，温暖的家及纤细的心。
可是是别人的就该归位。
我不应该偷。
众多的情绪也只能往心里埋，不该让你迷失。
不敢奢望有任何进展。
只要你快乐，幸福。

当我需要你时，不知是巧合或怎样，我都找不着你。
对你有种莫名的崇及放心。
你很完美。
完美到我会觉得对你，我是可有可无都没差。
我承认当初喜欢你时，我迎合你。
我迎合你的喜好，你的模式。
因为你很完美，所以我以为你的一定是好的，所以跟随你的模式准没错。
原来还是要以自己为点的，不然是不长久的。这是你告诉我的。

今夜心很乱，很无助，很害怕。
有的选又怎样！？
还是落到一个人的下场。。。
拿起电话熟悉的步伐又开始了。。
把电话簿从A按到最尾，
彷徨。。。
没有人。

就像某人说的，
这里似乎是我孤单寂寞时的落脚。

Am getting round and round~.~

Popular bookstore deco. Nice^^

keep on repeating the same scene in my mind.
Couples exchanging the rings after they said "i do".
Red invitation cards bringing different feelings to different people.
I do not know what's on my mind...
leave it.

I was shocked when i got the new that one of my Uni friends will soon going to be marry.
I'm afraid of hearing "marrying".
Seriously.
No reason.
(Could it be phobia? Or am i trying to escape from something?)

uneasy。



~.~

Random Photos

水果冰

Bintulu's zoo

Seeing myself le..

Never saw such a huge BEE!!

Just for laugh.

Love..

Scene i liked

Moo~~

Hmm..^^

1 question

Before you ask me any questions, could you please answer my only question?

“Who do you think you are to have the nerve to ask any about my private stuff?”

Thought only chick like to gossip around.

I guess I was wrong.

It goes other way now, male are more talented on this!!

WOW….impressed!

友谊的幸福之一，是知道了可以向谁倾吐秘密

这个世界上,
真相只有一个.
可是在不同人眼中,
却会看出不同的是非曲直。
这是为什么呢？
其实,道理很简单,
因为每个人看待事物,
都不可能站在绝对客观公正的立场上,
而是或多或少地戴上有色眼镜,
用自己的经验、好恶和道德标准来进行评判,
结果就是——我们看到了假象。

虽然是假象，
可杀伤力也是不能忽视.
它会像感染病样感染周围的人，
结果没被感染到的就会像外星人样被对待。
偶就树外星人囖。。。

不过我要告诉自己没关系没关系，
一切都会变的，
很快就会好转的，
人都是健忘及贪新鲜的，
等那一群人再次找到可以嚼舌根的话题时，
就会抛下现下的，衔住新的不放的。

还有那只离开的了还拼命的把头挤进来看热闹，
看就好咯， 还会去挖探人家的家事，
挖了还算顶的顺， 不过他既然还直接杀到被告哪儿问被告可否认罪！！
他树头脑装豆腐渣还是舍。。。

很明显的

你越界了

而我生气了。

这次真的是气到了。

你完蛋了！

He made it!
Finally he had his own way.
Am happy for him!

I must catch myself up!!!!

Random

Night life.

Office's view.

Dress for try.

Buddies.

Meaningful song.

Place for lunch.

好惆怅的心情。
一直以为自己是个很独立的女人，
却被一连串的打击把自己击得支离破碎。
曾经我是很憎恨那种人，
觉得他们/她们都是自找孽。。。
原来有些也是情非得已。

同事的冷淡与明显的排挤使我常觉难堪。
一场办公室迁移就显现了大家扭曲丑陋的一面，男女都一样。
自私是最基本的礼貌，
指责是家常便饭，
暗讽穿插在每句言语中，
哑巴吃黄连可真的明白的够彻底！

这不是我们的工作范围！

I'm really sick of this!
Kept on telling others that this is not your job! This is not your job!!
Damn Fxxking Shxt!
Asking about A/C software from me!!
Why don't you go and take the no. and find that guy yourself!!
Give you the no. so that you can get the latest new from him,
but then you replied:
"Oo~~这不是我们的工作范围！"
真的是缩头乌龟！
没见识过着这么孬的人！！
Everyday act like he's the heart of the company,
Acting like he's in charge in everything!
So bossy!
Yet when problems came,
"Oo~~这不是我们的工作范围！"

男人，我真的忍你很久！

Rambut palsu

Went to have hair cut this evening.
Been attracted by something.
Rupa rupanya, is rambut palsu!
Rambut palsu from a customer.
I noticed that rambut palsu a while.
It was taken off from a lady's hair.
Then the lady asked the worker to wash the "hair".
I thought washed her real hair only,
Rupa rupanya, her rambut palsu also.
Then the worker used the hair dryer to dry the "hair".
They were as careful as it is the real hair from the lady...
Chill........ -.-!!

What's going on with this world!!!
Until we have to serve the plastic fur like they are master, human are slave!!

This few weeks, I've been sinking in the sea of bad mood.
Making lots of mistakes.
Like just now,i accidently put all the dishes left into one bowl,
thought of i'm the last to have dinner,
dishes that couldn't finish always go to my dogs' stomach.

In the end, been scolded like what by my parent.
Cause daddy haven't eat...

Mom wants me to cook again for my dad.
They kept on complaining me,
mom said 1, dad added 2, then mom, then dad again...
Speechless....
Yeah, i know it was my fault.

But please don't keep on complain me by using those ridiculous reasons.
I wasn't always in good mood.
I wasn't as easy as what you thought.
I wasn't as happy as what you saw.
I wasn't tough.
I cried myself alone.

20-10-2009

Man's fight is really a sophisticated matter
Or i just say,
men are troublemaker!

who kill my cow?

Went to Popular book store to take the member card this afternoon,
my friend found an interesting book.
"Who Kill my Cow?"

Wondering what it is all about the book...

11-10-2009

I was doing my job as hard as i can.
I was trying to fight more for them.
I was treating them as nice as i could.
I was joking around them to make the environment more relax.

But i never thought it would come out the result like this.
Something that i hardly to say it out.
Something that really....

一罐喉糖

生病了这几天，感谢同事的关心。
午休时，同事静悄悄的阁下一罐喉糖在我桌上，
虽然同事是轻手轻脚的，
可还是吵醒了我。

我在想，
什么时候来了位那么体贴的同事？

感恩啊！

I was sick. Finally.
Haha...so grateful!
Office life really made me feels like shit!!
Sickness pulled me back from that world!

I didn't take off my duty.
Still go on with my job.
But is quite happy cause i could lock myself in my room,
pretending that i'm not well, couldn't entertain the others.
Hahaha...

see ya^^

1st day of October.
Thought everything gonna be fine after the Kuching trip.
Getting a new PA to serve the ED.
Hung finally made up his mind to stay back.
That means i don't have to struggle in the sea of the Insurance Coverage...

But now.
The PA ran away.
Hung started to change his mind, again, after having conversation with WHS.
i can't reach him tonight, not even a reply for my call or message.
Things getting more and more complicated.

Is it worth to do this?
Can you pictured yourself 3 years later from now in this company?

No doubt. I started to doubt.

Wonderful Gift

This is the video that can warm my heart every time i watched it. Thanks for the director who had created such a wonderful video.
Hope, is where it begin.

I miss you so much.
Every time i went back from meeting you from Kuching,
i would cry.
Like now.

I miss you a lot a lot.
A feeling that is indescribable.
i feel like wanna stay in Kuching to be with you.
So that i won't suffer the pain of missing someone that i love!

• Take into account that great love and great achievement involve great risk.
• Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
• When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
• Follow 3 R's: Respect for self, respect for others and responsibility for all your actions.
• Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.
• When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
• Open your arms to change, but don't give up your values.
• Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
• In disagreements with the loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.
• Remember the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

Spend some time alone every day.

It's been so long, long enough to let me forget that kinda feeling.
I can't figure out what is the problem at first.
but then think carefully, it sounds familiar.
It was worrying.
That really makes me loss.
Tears well up my eyes when i realized what's wrong with me.
I put on sun glass when driving to cover my red eyes.
Sitting alone at the corner of the round table when meeting.
Trying to focus on what the president was talking about.
Sneak away after the meeting cause afraid been call to go lim teh.

I have no mood at all.



I need sleep.

久违了的 不好受

到底把自己坦诚摆在他面前是对的吗？

我重视他，所以把一切都告知他。

是因为这样吗？
所以他也用了好长的时间来评估我们的感情？

知道他是一位在感情上不马虎的人，更可以称是挑剔。
我还是告诉他我的不好。
原因无它。
就希望他是在没有充满不公平的情况下做出他的决定。

今晚也一样。
我觉得我应该让他懂我的问题，我的想法，
而不是把自己丑陋的一面给藏起来。

可能让他知道这些真的会影响我们的感情。
可我不管了，我宁愿他早知好过最后一个懂。
原谅我的自私，因为我不想自欺欺人。

临别前，我听出了你那久违了的冷哼。
心也跌入谷底了。
我做错了吗？
还是根本就是错误的开始？
还是 是我想太多？

09.09.09

I had thought of this date 09.09.09 several of times 3 years ago.
i knew that i'm gonna graduate in 2009.
And i knew that this 09.09.09 will only appear once in my life time.
So i'm gonna wisely use this special day to do some special things!
That was wat i thought 3 yrs ago.

But today i had no feeling at all.
I even forgot about this 09.09.09 until i received some messages from friends.
i didn't do any special things cause i'm suffering from a sprained ankle.

Thank God for not giving me any opportunity to look back for everything.

I never thought your leaving will bring any impact to me...
But u did!
It seems like not only me had changed u.
You are reside in some part of my mind today.
Hopefully only today.

Ikan Belik Belik

Office life is not as easy as what i thought.

You, Ikan Belik Belik!

I served u all the hotels' quotations tat u need,
Arranged all the meals, tea breaks and accommodation,
Informed all the sites' workers bout the seminar and
pleaded them to come, enticed them that everything will be provided by the company,
food, accommodation, fees...
all u need is just to bring urself there.
And making appointment to visit the hotel's conference room and
bargaining bout the prices,
in the end u told me to just cancelled all this,
u only want to rent for the conference room,
no accommodation will be provided for any of us.
Asking me to requo from the hotels again.

Could you pls clearly make up ur mind before ordering me to do my job?
What is effectiveness?
Spending double of my time to do this "everyone reluctant to go for" 's talk?
Or waiting for 3 of u to debate and comes out "bosses" decision?

I'm just consuming a very very tiny part or ur earnings,
yet u seems like squeezing me to give u everything.

THis is so crazy...

Stanley

我终于毕业了！
毕业典礼让我想起了你。
这次毕业礼是我亲身驾车来回，
中途我很想呐喊："看，这一次是我自己驾车出远门，
我不再是那个坐在司机旁的那一位了！
我是司机了！你看见了吗？"
是你教会我驾远路要看住中间的白线跑，
这样就不会驾到别人的路。
遇到对面有司机对你闪灯，
代表前面有警察，要减速。
这些我全都派上用场了!

想起刚进大学，我对大学有诸多的不满及不适应，你都一一为我解围，为我打抱不平。
更甚至连进大学前一晚都是你帮我打包的！
谢谢你为我所做的一切，
虽然你永远也听不到我亲口对你说，
我还是要感谢你！
感谢你出现在我生命当中！
感谢你在我读书的一整段日子有你陪我度过！
感谢你在我生病时煮了热热又好吃的粥给我！
感谢你在我考试前夕发高烧时比我妈还紧张的带我去刮痧！
感谢你在我肚子痛时为我按摩肚子！
感谢你在我熬夜拼考试时陪我！
感谢你在我最脆弱无助时陪我度过！
感谢你陪我找了许多份工！
感谢你让我见识了社会上的酸甜苦辣！
感谢你你让我学会忍耐！
感谢你让我学会宽容！
感谢你让我学会无条件付出！
感谢你那温柔的拥抱！
感谢你那轻言呵护！
感谢你曾经那么的守护我！

感谢你曾经爱过我！

同样的感谢你的不忠！
感谢你的谎言！
感谢你的欺骗！
感谢你带给我的酸和苦！
感谢你带给我的泪水！
感谢你带给我的离群念头！


这一切都让我更坚强！
这一切都警惕我不要再重犯同样的错误！
这一切都让我更爱我自己！
谢谢你造就了今天的我！

最令我心酸及讽刺的是
我有你陪我进大学的所有回忆
却在世上没有你的存在下
毕业了，离开了大学！

曾经我的毕业礼是你很期待的一个节日。
很对不起没让你等到。

脑袋瓜儿充满了疑问，

要是你还在，

你会愿意参加我的毕业礼吗？

你

还会记得我吗？


这些回忆我想封锁了。
以后的每一个日子，
我会很用心的过下去。
请你走好，安息。

Went back to Sibu last evening. Damn tired and exhausted.
When i was lying on my bed last night, i looked back...
Wow..I've made it!
graduated finally!
And both the convocations were going smoothly.
THank God!
Miss my course mates and UNIMAS so much.
Feels like want to go back again.

And now i'm brand new fresh grad!
Officially fresh grad!
No more "i'm still studying"
If i'm jobless means i'm really jobless,
no more excuse as i'm still a student!
And no more excuse to tell my mom i wanna go to Kuching
since i'm no longer student there.


HuHu~~ a brand new day tomorrow!
Gambate PING!!
FIghting!

Convocation

I had completed my degree. 3 years.
Is just too short for a student who loves uni life.
But is long enough for someone who is waiting for something.
Till it becomes an impossible task.

memories...

The 1st day of registration, i and S rushing to airport in a very very last minute and all the MAS passengers were waiting for both of us!

S and Eric helping me to clean my room at Seroja.

S brought me to buy all those groceries at everise, desa ilmu.

Illegally moved to Allamanda and he helped me changed the door lock. Guess what? I managed to have my own key for 1 year before the officer knew it!

He went in and out from U to pick me for dinners at allamanda's block D staircase.

1st year convocation. I saw those graduates holding a bunch of rose, taking photos around Unimas.

I told him, when i graduate, i wan 9999 roses from him.

He said



sure



No problem



I promise.

RATSSS

Damn Sh*t pig head!
Complaining about his' this and that
Look at you!!
So sh*t d act like him also!
Dare to say others
When troubles come then shrink like a rat!
Both are RATS!!!!!!

This is really sweet....(copy from mail)

When a girl is quiet...
millions of things are running in her mind. (yes, i do agree)
When a girl is not arguing...
she is thinking deeply. (thinking are you stupid or something?)
when a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions...
she is wondering...
how long you will be around. (well, not every time)
When a girl answers "i'm fine" after a few seconds...
she is..
not at all..
fine.(i think guys should know this)
When a girl stares at you...
she is wondering why you are lying. (depends on who i stared)
When a girl lays on your chest...
she is wishing for you to be hers...
forever.(have that kinda thought on that moment...)
When a girl wants to see you everyday...
she wants to be pampered. ( i'm not a child. Not always. just miss you)
When a girls says "i love you"...
she means it. (yeah...but this phrase is just too weighty)
When a girls says " i miss you"...
no one in this world can miss you..
more..
than that.(except those secret admirerssss)
Life only comes around once
make sure you spend it with the right person.
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot.(^_^!)
Who calls you back when you hang up on him. (yes, he did)
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. (think is the other way round..)
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead. (that's right)
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. (Please don't do it purposely)
who holds your hand in front of his friends.(is ours friends actually)
who is constantly reminding you how much he cares about you
(i trust in you, don't have to mention it constantly. Occasionally should be enough. cause i know guys don't like to do that!)
and how lucky he is to have you. (is that means i'm unlucky to have you?)
Who turns to his friends and says "that's her!!" (who owed you big apples?)

Just for laugh!
smile \(^_^)/

Things did not go smooth lately.
2 colleagues wanna resign at the same time.
And both of them are from the same department.
36 miles' site manager needs another mechanic and clerk.
Pasai's site manager is looking for Indon.
I need to prepare the organization chart with all the detail of job descriptions, write in proposal for Hari Raya open house and design for the new t-shirt.
Colleagues went in and out from my room telling me about all their secrets and thoughts.
Asking about my point of view.
And i have to make sure all of them are okay.
Am learning to forget all those not so important things so that i won't explode.
Feel like want to find someone to talk to.
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Am waiting for his reply.

My dear Mr D

We are living in an unfair world

Equality is awfully simple to mention

In order to apply, it’s simply awful

Human changed from a white sheet into a colorful sheet

When they started to step deeply into this world

The more you stayed with this environment

The more ideas appear in your mind

Hopefully not all are wicked!

For those Mr/Ms Small who have to scarify their precious time and energy to save a poor company, equality is the mediator.

Without it, it will bring back nothing to YOU!

My dear Mr B

Why on earth an employee holding RM3500 wage per month has nothing to do in the office. After he finished reading Utusan Borneo, after chatting around with the other stuffs who are extremely busy, after passing around the office’s desks hundred of times, I saw his face through the transparent glass of the window. He was bored. I could read his face. He got nothing to do in the office! Seriously! I couldn’t understand why we need this kinda worker? It’s just like feeding a pet! A useless pet! Even dogs can help to take care of the house and cats can catch the rats! What can u have??? Kept asking for leave leave and leave!!! Annual leave! Back early! Overtime!?! Pls la, I never ever saw you appear in the office out of office hour. Thought I was blind ??

Who can calm the storm?

Started to miss my Unimas's desk....

Heavy heavy and heavy

Heavy breakfast with Hung and Nic!

After 20 minutes!

Here comes again heavy lunch at Pizza Hut with Nic, Cheng and Ling...

And this!

Huhu~

Passed by a church and saw this!

Randon thought again

Went to a gathering with my secondary school's class mate to night at Uncle Dom sambil gave Jing Jing a small birthday surprise. Looking at their faces, still the same, just additional layer of make ups and additional luxury accessories.

And guess what?

I'm the only 1 who wore slipper! Hooray for it!!

We were chitchating about our life, taking photos, having drinks, and cakes.

From their conversations, i noticed that some of them still the same like before. I mean their attitudes towards life. Or i can say they are expecting more and more! The way they talked is like got isi tersirat inside it.

Looking at them but my mind was wondering what should i write in my blog later when i'm home. I just don't enjoy it with some of them.
Just some.

Then i started to think what was actually loaded in their mind? Do they really happy with their life? Are the words out of their mouth is what they really want?

Looked at her, pretty, gorgeous, finacial freedom, only child in her family, even her parent would pick her go and back from the gathering place! She's just like a princess! They seem don't have to worry about their life. Everything are so easy for them. I can imaging their life will most probably like " marrying a handsome and rich guy, everyday dress pretty pretty and compare here and there with others......" *_*

Sounds like i'm jealous right? But no lo....Am just feel pity of them..Wasting their time to do something meaningless yet still they are proud of it.
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Reached home around 11pm, a friend called me. He was having some problems in his job. So i just lent my ear to him. He is quite tough actually. But then still we are human. sometimes, we are weak. We need supports from our friends are family. We need advices from others. We need someone to pull us out of the dead end. We need to be wake up by others!

Hope he really can make it.
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Knowing that he is going to have fun with his colleagues. Am glad cause so fast he can go clubbing with his colleagues. I'm quite worry about him cause of his hectic life over there. However worry is worry, i still trust he can handle it. I'm not sure my "pause and play" works or not on his job ...
Back to point 1 again, life is too short and unpredictable, pointless to worry too much everyday! Appreciate what you have now,no matter it is sweet, sour, bitter or spicy! Cause you'll never know what is waiting in front of you!

Body

Physical outlook---is it important for you?
I do agree that physical outlook can really catch my attention.
But if you really want to find a soul mate, is that count in your list?

I have friends who take this very serious.
Their point of views is if someone can't even take good care of their body,
how can they look after their loves one...
Same goes to if you don't love yourself, how can you love the others??
(I can accept this reason)

Look around people beside us, how many of them really care about their diet?
Do they see exercises as part of their life?
Or just eat whatever they want at whatever time?

Gals...\("G")/
pls take care of your body!
Those "i'll love you forever no matter how you body shape looks like!" from guys are all bullshit!!!
Don't be so naive!

Am not imply it to anyone, just love yourself!
Inside and outside of yours...

Tips for better life!

• No matter how you feel, just get up, dress up and show up!

• Whatever good or bad situation, it will CHANGE!

• No one is in charge of your happiness EXCEPT you!

• What other people think of you is NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!

• You don't have to win an argument! Agree to disagree does not mean you are a loser!

Enjoy the ride~~

My colleagues

My colleagues include 5 staffs in Account department, 3 form Purchasing department, 2 operation managers, office boy and 3 bosses! But i only close with the accout department's staffs, the rest still ok ok only.


The one who was so exited and pointing here and there is my office's accountant. The 1 mata senyet here is assistant accountant. While the one holding the ph is account clerk. The rest are Orang Tepi. We always used to have lunch together, especially on Saturday! cause the bills are count on company!!xixixi...Oya..forgot to tell you, we were in KFC, Sanyan.

Another lunch at McD, and it is sponsered by one of the site manager, named Jeffery.



See how high the lemak and garam!!! Rubbish food!


Dinner at the restaurant beside my office. The min hoon that he hold was just as hard as rope. Looks like rope also! And the fry egg on the plate was cooked in oil sup!肥死啊！



The only good thing is - i learnt to eat Chilli!

I know is hard for you this moment.

To gain experience from falling down
To learn new things form mistakes
To work so hard to prove your ability
To endure all those colleagues
To stand those rough time at work
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Honey,
just wanna let you know

Life is a school and we are here to learn
problems are simply part of the curriculum
that appear to enhance our result
and fade away like an algebra class

But the lessons we learnt will last a lifetime!

Quote from you"let's work it out together"!

Marriage

When i was young, i thought that marriage was a simple thing.
You just go and find the one that you liked or you loved,
then live together and you will live happy forever and ever with your husband.

Until i met S.
At first, we were perfectly match!
I mean the personality.
But time passed by, we started to show up our bad side.
He tended to use lies to cover himself.
And i tended to lie myself about everything.
I thought this is the best way for us.
But i guess i was wrong...
Things getting more and more complicated..
No more romance, no more sweet words (all were lies)..
All i had were unlimited problems and worries!!!

I then noticed that marriage is not guarantee of happy forever!

My sister is another victim now!
Not to say victim actually...
Is just marriage does not only involve you and your spouse..
It involves money, family members, and all those material things.
It burdens us.
But of course if you are mature enough to look all the bad things into positive, that's good!

It's just hard for an ordinary people, seriously...

It is always happier to date than to marry, rite?
(haiz...how come i become so irresponsible??)