有的没的

解释不来到底是什么心情...
身边朋友一个个都结婚去了，
我知道这是我必经之路，可当遇上了还是会影响哦～
就是看着别人结婚，心里可是五味俱全...

甜-因为看她/他们终于成家了，不再孤寡一人，为她/他们而甜。然后我也知道有一天我也会的，会尝到最甜美的。要耐心等候。

酸-没有妒忌，可是会做比较。比较表面上别人比我好的。然后我也知道我会很好的，就没必要与别人比较，大家的生活都不一样，怎么比都没有公平的衡量。

苦-这应该没有吧！我不苦，一点也不。反而还蛮多恩典。

辣-还真不明了这感觉。

不过会怀疑，结婚有那么容易吗？


时间还没到。。。



越写越觉的是我想太多，而且是有的没的=.=lll

见识记

今天见识到了.
话说今天在分次序单时，
遇见一为妇女，
她应该是视线有障碍，
当她靠近玻璃门时不是推门而入，
反而是一直往左侧摸，
当下才焕然大悟原来她视线有障碍。

把手上的次序单递给她，
看她往一张有空位的橡胶椅摸索去,
椅子隔壁的会众就对她说有人的，不给她坐，
于是她就往左边圣堂走，
当到了玻璃门时，看她顿了下，似乎有些恐惧，
于是我就上前扶住她的肩膀对她说我带你去坐。
她有些避忌不过还是任由我领到一个座位.

那空的座位是必须越过一个女子（妇女)的，
好像对她有些不方便，于是她就叫那女子坐进去，
那女子就偏不要，硬往左侧坐让出空位让她进去，
我就对那女子说她眼睛不方便，她还是无动于衷。
最后那妇女就走进坐下。
看她坐下了，我就继续回到岗位分次序单，
心里想着“到底是怎么了这世界的人？
一点怜悯心都没有？”
看着后头有些小孩走来走去，
想着刚刚那女子，她也曾是小孩过，
那么的天真无邪，
到底是什么把她磨成今天这副德行...

在教堂遇到的人也不过如此，没什么差别。

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29 tips for Christian.

Those that reach my heart

-When the demon talks about your past, please remind him his future.
-Do not be self centre, let Christ be our centre.
-His promises are like stars in the sky. Deeper the night, brighter the twinkles.
-Prays will do a lot for us, so do worried.
-life without Christ, hopeless end. Life with Christ, endless hope.
-I've no idea what's waiting for me in future but i know who is in charge of my future.
-When you have only Him and left nothing, you will know that He is your everything.
-Only the one who created you could satisfiy your heart.
-Worship reminds the value of life, the world makes us forget about it.
-when you feel difficult to move on, don't just pray but not following the path that He shows.

Boyfriend dilemma

I'm not piss off on people taking sarcastic about my relationship.



Okay. A little bit.


WTF!


What is the use to angry myself alone here??

Stupid!

压抑的坏

那个疑惑好多哦！
在面子书上写下自己想说的话也得三思而后“打”！
做人为什么那么的辛苦？
明明就讨厌到极点还要假装享受在其中。
视乎谁都要顾到，
哪谁又会顾到我的？？？
一句要专业就抵过一切！
什么是专业？
就是做自己不喜欢做的。
怎样才能专业之余还能保住自己仅有的原则？
身为某间东东的一员，专业是不是就得凡事以它为主？
一定要顾到它们的利益先，其余的才是次要？
那么专业就是要失去一些东西。
每一次的挫折都好不好受。
怀疑自己到底是混这一行的吗？
到底够资格吗？
想想好像自己犯了好多误失。。。
好挫败。
好讨厌伪装。
我想我应该要好好发泄
左顾右顾好压抑。

我相信祂

最近和教会的朋友渐渐变得更熟练，
也让我感觉到很久没有的温暖。
谢谢青团。谢谢祂一路的带领。
老套的一句：生活为了什么？
只要是以祂为中心，你永远都不会迷失！
这句话是又真又活.

我把感情交托，因为这是对我影响最大的。
今天他问了我对某影片有何投影,
是部男女复杂关系的影片。
当下心里第一闪过的是，他又想起了。
人心就是如此的脆弱。
不管他是如何想，我毕竟第一时间还是不相信，
不相信他会放下，所以我才会反射性的想是他又想起了。
很不愿意承认，我不够坚定，坚定的相信祂。
所以才会有那么多的负面想法。
不够勇敢面对没结果的可能性，
不够勇敢去面对不好的。。。

我需要祂！
我需要完完全全的相信祂！
我要相信祂！
我相信祂！

Maybe

When you were in Secondary time, you said that you dare to dream and almost hit every targets. But now, after went through so much ups and downs...You seem lost the confidence on your dreams.

Maybe because you used to be too good, good enough at that secondary school time, you think that you could have what you want on your own. Without needing Him. And yes, you were so blessed to win every dreams that you have that time.

Maybe He just want you to learn. Life isn't prefect. Sometimes, we need to learn to appreciate imprefection. Think of this recent dream, if He didn't show any merciful and let you went to the interview last year at KL there, what would the impact of it? Think back how crazy that time you're into that job! If you get rejected that time, i think the disappointment couldn't describe using words.

Maybe He made the interview posponed just for you to rethink and rearrange your life priority! After all, He made your wish comes true. The interview finally came for you! And you had stepped into the room, getting grouping, meeting all the tall guys and pretty hot gals...Just not till the end. And Why?

Well, maybe He wants you to learn again! Tempered your attitude towards life and success. But for sure, He is not letting you to lost hope! He wants you to keep growing, train you for further life!

You have to believe! You got to ! keep hoping and trusting no matter what happen! I know is hard on this part, but you have to try and keep move on!

It's hard to let go.
Especially the one that you cared most.
Just a minute before i reached home from jogging,
there was a scene suddenly appeared on my mind.
Something terrible and disgusting...at least for me.
And stupid me really shaked my head to get rid of it.
Huhmm...i guess this is what people called pass memories haunting your life!
Think of the other way round,
yap, it is hard for him to let go after all this.
Easy to say by mouth but hard to practice in heart.
I admitted.