Finally i can online!!!! At McD. Haha..
Looks like McD's gonna be my most-frequent-visit-place for the rest of the days. I managed to find a room today. It is near to my current place and the renter is same as now. Moving date & my roommate are another issues that i need to concern now. Have to wait my roommate back from JB then we can discuss again.
Mom just called telling me that she went for dentist to remove her teeth. 2 teeth. But the 2nd tooth was not proper removed by the dentist. She needs to visit again 2 weeks later. I could feel the pain she suffered. That bastard dentist! I bet he can only survive in Sibu. If he is wanting to move out of that town, he's gonna die from earning shit. (I think i'm a bit adopt to Singaporen typical complain pattern.) If i were there, am gonna screw him up really bad.
Again, i am not there. Hope she's gonna be fine.
$$$ (Am gonna skip this topic) I don't want to be the slave of $
I'm so bother with a lot of things. I think it is a turning point in this particular period. Will see how everything goes.
Stay firm and be strong ping. Wait patiently, good things are yet to come. Have faith and wait patiently.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Thursday, June 16, 2011
I had my birthday here alone with myself. Not entirely alone, i had received a cake from Miri 2 days before and i had another mini cake from Sharon 2 days after. I attended ISO 9001:2008 internal audit course on my birthday. It was an useful and interesting course, if, you can manage to understand it totally. For me, it is new and kinda complicated. Hope it gets clearer when i use it on the job training.
I started to use to the hectic working life. Realised that i have no time to really getting myself alone. Having OT this 2 weeks. When i went home the roommate was there, have my shower and dinner, then JL would call me, then time to sleep. I have no time to myself. I have no time to read.
By the time i wrote this, i still have the无奈feeling. I cannot change anything here but only my own thinking.
I will move again. I saw the landlord trying to peep on his maid when she was showering. There was a hole on the plastic door of the shower room. It terrified me at first. But there is not much i can do. I can only use blue tab to tab the hole everytime i shower. I skipped to shower in the morning and choose to shower only when the landlord was not at home. From panic to calm, now i can act normal at there. I told my roommate few days later. We decided to move out together. But is hard to find a suitable room with affordable price. My roommate is kinda 胆小's gal. She would rather keep the secret even if she move out. But i told her, i will tell the landlady, the agent, and the other tenant in that house when i move out. The landlady's still holding us one month deposit, if we want to move out, we need to give one month notice. My roommate is not dare to let the landlady know that we are going to move out together. With her scare here and there, it is hard for us to move out together. But without her moving with me, is hard for me to look for shareroom. At here, grouping two person to share a room is easy than one person to look for shareroom. Am still looking for room. I hope that we can at least move out in August.
I had my friend book the cny ticket for me. It costs me RM1.4K. So numb to spend the money. Again, there is nothing much i can do. I search all the tickets around that time, and all costing me at least RM1.5K. I have insufficient RM in my Maybank so i called back to ask for help, then my dad complained: Working in Sg already still not enough to cover myself. It hurts. I told him, i did not go to JB so i cannot change the S$ to RM to deposit it in MBB. At the same time i know he was right too. I had only received 2 months salary and it is true that i am able to cover my daily expenses only at this moment. As there are some expenses that i cannot control on. Like the agent fee (the more frequent i use the service of agent to look for room, the more i need to pay. I need luck to find room without agent, so no choice), the medical fee for dermatologist (getting here making my acne problem get worse), and some expenses on food and shopping to cheer myself up (the only way to really cheer me from this sick place, i know this is an excuse but sincerely if i wanna take good care of myself, i need to). You guys still want the carefree ping ping right?^^
Life is sucks. But still wonderful and worth to live for.
I started to use to the hectic working life. Realised that i have no time to really getting myself alone. Having OT this 2 weeks. When i went home the roommate was there, have my shower and dinner, then JL would call me, then time to sleep. I have no time to myself. I have no time to read.
By the time i wrote this, i still have the无奈feeling. I cannot change anything here but only my own thinking.
I will move again. I saw the landlord trying to peep on his maid when she was showering. There was a hole on the plastic door of the shower room. It terrified me at first. But there is not much i can do. I can only use blue tab to tab the hole everytime i shower. I skipped to shower in the morning and choose to shower only when the landlord was not at home. From panic to calm, now i can act normal at there. I told my roommate few days later. We decided to move out together. But is hard to find a suitable room with affordable price. My roommate is kinda 胆小's gal. She would rather keep the secret even if she move out. But i told her, i will tell the landlady, the agent, and the other tenant in that house when i move out. The landlady's still holding us one month deposit, if we want to move out, we need to give one month notice. My roommate is not dare to let the landlady know that we are going to move out together. With her scare here and there, it is hard for us to move out together. But without her moving with me, is hard for me to look for shareroom. At here, grouping two person to share a room is easy than one person to look for shareroom. Am still looking for room. I hope that we can at least move out in August.
I had my friend book the cny ticket for me. It costs me RM1.4K. So numb to spend the money. Again, there is nothing much i can do. I search all the tickets around that time, and all costing me at least RM1.5K. I have insufficient RM in my Maybank so i called back to ask for help, then my dad complained: Working in Sg already still not enough to cover myself. It hurts. I told him, i did not go to JB so i cannot change the S$ to RM to deposit it in MBB. At the same time i know he was right too. I had only received 2 months salary and it is true that i am able to cover my daily expenses only at this moment. As there are some expenses that i cannot control on. Like the agent fee (the more frequent i use the service of agent to look for room, the more i need to pay. I need luck to find room without agent, so no choice), the medical fee for dermatologist (getting here making my acne problem get worse), and some expenses on food and shopping to cheer myself up (the only way to really cheer me from this sick place, i know this is an excuse but sincerely if i wanna take good care of myself, i need to). You guys still want the carefree ping ping right?^^
Life is sucks. But still wonderful and worth to live for.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
My boss is going to resign soon. So basically from now on I need to be independent alone in all the stuff. They will get a HR Manager to replace her. But my boss said by that time, my workload would be much more heavy cause a manager normally work with mouth. And I work with hand. Is it a blessing from Him? To train me really hard. Am I supposed to say that I am a lucky gal cause I just barely be here for 2 months and it seems I need to catch up everything. I am freak out. Especially when dealing with my weaknesses. And what can I do now is just keep moving. Thought I am afraid and missing at times but I have no choice, I need to move on. Lord, can you hear my weary visible voice?
Thing comes together with him having a huge turning point in his life. I have no choice either but to accept the truth that there are His plans on me, to know him in this timing. I wonder at times, what is the purpose to let me know him? To give a hand to help him pull through all the hard times? To test me again in a relationship attitude? Or some other reasons that I might miss out?
I need true happiness. The one really comes from the deep of my heart, the smiles and the tones that are really implying the real me, instead of me forcing myself to be happy. Is grateful I know that I need to learn on. If I am grateful, I won’t be so bother.
Thing comes together with him having a huge turning point in his life. I have no choice either but to accept the truth that there are His plans on me, to know him in this timing. I wonder at times, what is the purpose to let me know him? To give a hand to help him pull through all the hard times? To test me again in a relationship attitude? Or some other reasons that I might miss out?
I need true happiness. The one really comes from the deep of my heart, the smiles and the tones that are really implying the real me, instead of me forcing myself to be happy. Is grateful I know that I need to learn on. If I am grateful, I won’t be so bother.