I dislike driving at night!

I had night driving phobia!
Especially when i need to reverse my car.
Or when i drove pass some places that were lack of street lights!

My favourite time now had become my nightmare...

Thanks for My Almighty GoD.
He provide everything that i needed.

I went to shop alone tonight,
to buy presents for my friends and colleagues.
I have no idea at all what should i buy for them.
But before i went home, i managed to buy 5 presents!
Without long thinking cause when i looked at the presents,
i know that those are the gifts that i wanted to give them.
Meaningful and affordable.

I also received a new from my church's friend,
he said he'll sponsor 1/3 of my fee to Indon missionary trip!!
What a big surprise for me.
I was so so happy...

And i promise,
One day i will sponsor those who needs my help,
just like how the way my friend did it.

Thank you so much!
I know He always with me. Always.
No matter what i did.

Jingle bell jingle bell, jingle all the way.....
Its gonna be fun to celebrate Christmas with my colleagues.
But i'm afraid i can't make it on that day...
It's my 1st time to involve in decorating Christmas stuffs, wrapping Christmas present (just some empty boxes), hanging those little little bling bling stuffs on the Christmas tree...
How i wish one day i can have a Christmas tree that is decorated by us.

Getting more and more pimples these few days...
Stress ka or hormone problem??
Please ignore the pimples on my face when meet me ya...

Flowers for wedding.
Photo doesn't look nice.
But the real 1 really nice leh~

I really like my cybershot k800i.
It makes the pimples gone.

Attending colleague's warming dinner to night.
Met one of the x staff .
Her baby was so damn cute!!
When he was crying, he didn't make any sounds.
Just wrinkled his face and tears swimming in his eyes...
I told my colleagues that when i looked at the baby,
i felt like want to have one.

At the moment, my colleagues began to laugh at me.

~.~

I wanna out to buy something.
But i'm lazy to drive.
I wanna watch New Moon.
But nobody can company me.
I wanna share my moody mood.
But end up i need to listen to theirs.

what's wrong with me?
Who am i?
Tell me what should i do?
Where is the simple me?
Life isn't simple. ReaLLY.

I know that i should get ready for the mission.
I should focus on that.
I should fully prepare myself for the journey.
I should't let other matters to mess my mind.

不要爱上我

是不是我们都太冲动
压抑不了寂寞
这样的关系到底算什么
我竟然会感动

相信你会为爱往前冲
而我没有把握
暧昧的关系到底算什么
好怕你爱上我

怕你爱上我
不要爱上我
我眼眶的泪
闪烁在美丽的黑夜
却无能为力呀

怕你爱上我
不要爱上我
我给的不多
请你原谅我的脆弱
让你我拥有自由

If you judge people, you have no time to love them. Mother Teresa

In a day, when you don't come across any problems,
you can be sure that you are travelling in a wrong path. Swami Vivekenanda

If someone feels that they had never made a mistake in their life,
then it means they had never tried a new thing in their life. Albert Einstein

Never break 4 things in our life: Trust, Relation, Promise & Heart
because when they break, they don't make noise
but pains a lot. Charles Dickens

Three sentences for getting success:
Know more than other
Work more than other
Expect less than other
William Shakespeare

If you win, you need not have to explain..
If you lose, you should not be there to explain. Adolf Hitler

If we cannot love the person whom we see,
how can we love God, whom we cannot see...
Mother Teresa

I will not say i failed 1000 times,
i will say that i discovered 1000 ways than can cause failure. Thomas Alva Edison

Everyone thinks of changing the world,
but no one thinks of changing himself. Leo Tolstoy

Believing everybody is dangerous,
but believing nobody is more dangerous. Abraham Lincoln

刺猬-温岚

最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单 是寂寞或
悲惨 一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上 一片无
声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上 一片无
声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还
傻 刺猬的坚强全都是假象

我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

confession of a daughter

When i was big enough to remember my childhood,
You never hug me.
When i need your signature on my result book,
you were not there,
I am the 1 learning your signature to sign my brothers and mine result book.
When my mom needs you,
you were not there with her,
I am the 1 carried out all the house chores before i went to school.
When i get good result in any of the public exam,
you never say good to me,
you only complaint why not prefect result.
When i answered back your order,
whole family would be in trouble.
When my mom complaint about you to me,
i would smile and said just used to it.
When you are missing something,
whole family have to stop their work to look for you.
sometimes you would blame on us simply without any reason.
When you need help,
we all must help you, no matter we were free or not, willing or not.
When you lose your temper,
we all have to tolerate you, you were always right.
Even though you scolded me by using dirty word.
I'm numb.
But marks were there.
Anywhere i could hide myself a while?

Raining day.
Nice weather to sleep.
I like it.

心是空洞的。
每天过得像是行尸走肉。
面具是换了一具又一具。
到底还要带着面具多久才能做回自己？

DECEMBER=WEDDING SEASON
表姐今晚请结婚喜宴。
羡慕两个词由心而发。
渴望写在我眼里。
心酸往心里努力的吞。

祷告经文

大有能力的主： 　　
感谢赞美你，因为你是鉴察人心的主，知道我们灵性和身体的一切需要。求你怜悯我们，往往有时候，我们心灵固然愿意，肉体却软弱了，灵性上退步了。求主的灵感动我们，使我们热心爱主，儆醒祷告，多读圣经，常常参加聚会，多与弟兄姊妹们交通，靠主得胜一切，使我们从你那里得着能力，疲乏的重新得力，软弱的变为刚强。我们的罪过，求主遮盖；我们的疾病，求主医治；我们的难处，求主挪开，使我们的身、心、灵都健壮有力，作盐作光，荣神益人。奉主圣名祈祷，阿们。

审判万人的主： 　　
我放纵自己的私欲，违犯了天父的旨意，所想的、所说的，所做的，都有罪过。我得罪了慈爱的神，干犯了神的盛怒。求圣灵光照我，感动我，使我为罪、为义、为审判，自己责备自己。求主治死我的旧人，把老我的邪情私欲、自私自利、骄傲自满、自以为义、自高自大，钉死在十字架上，与主同死、同埋葬、同复活，使罪身灭绝，不再作罪的奴仆，让主的生命在我心里永远作主作王。求主大能的手，帮助我胜过钱色的诱惑、今生的忧虑、世俗的缠绕和一切肉体的恶行，完全顺服圣灵的引导，每日的行为都与蒙召的恩相称，过得胜圣洁的生活，做一个言行一致、表里一致的基督徒。奉耶稣基督的名悔罪。阿们。

幸福

我说啊，
幸福是
当早上醒来时发现还能呼吸，还看得见，还听得到，还感觉得到周遭的一切。
幸福是
当下雨天时，还能有车驾，看着窗外的路人狼狈的模样，突然觉得——太幸福了。
幸福是
当打开衣橱时，不用用太多的时间去翻查，就能拿出自己喜欢又舒服的衣服穿。
幸福是
虽然每天穿着同一双鞋去上班，可是从来没觉得那有什么不妥，因为心是满有安全感的。
幸福是
能尝到各式各样的食物，不一定是要美食，只要是能咽得下肚，又暖肚的，当下真的会很感动。
幸福是
能花钱去做自己想做的事；去脚底按摩，去买任何爱看的书，去买衣服，去旅行，去买礼物送给喜欢的人。
幸福是
能给家人家用。
幸福是
能开怀大笑，不理他人眼光。
幸福是
能在心里随心所欲的有自己独特的想法，那是别人永远也无法干涉的。
幸福是
能躲过一切的试探，能清楚知道自己要的是什么，能很明确的告诉自己及别人哪些是自己所要的。
幸福是
能在自己发现做错时，能及时抽身。
幸福是
能处处为别人着想，虽然回来的没几个好的，幸福的点是学了一堂宝贵的课程。
幸福是
在对感情迷惘时，保持住单身。
幸福是
不拿过去的错来一直让自己活在恶梦当中。
幸福是
还能再来一次。
幸福是
能有狗陪住。
幸福是
通过电话分手后，还能边看戏，边吃零食，还能压抑住悲哀。
幸福是
看见别人能幸福。
幸福是
我有家人。
幸福是
我有缺陷。
幸福是
我会哭。