误会

我觉得好好笑哦。。。
那个是你提出的，之后我是很积极的做了很多，可是好像吓坏你了！
还是不了解我呵。

放心，没要你吃回头草，我也没脑袋秀逗掉。只是做得好像好误会。
算了。

真的是又气又好笑。

*谢谢你的回复，一切都明了。

My weekend

Went to "Mu Gui Lan" last weekend with a group of youth from 30+ churches. Our church has the most participants, so we booked the whole bus without sharing with others. The bus was without aircon, so we were all having natural wind along the way. I think we all swallowed some dust cause kept on laughing.....don't know for what.

The main focus for this camp was for the election of the youth fellowship member for part of area in Sibu. Not sure the term in English. And funny thing was they did the election at night time....so sleepy to wait for the result.

I did not sleep well there. So small the room yet allocated 20+ people in a room with double decked bed.  Not used to sleep with others plus mixture of some other complicated feeling.  This was the 1st camp that made me cried. Crying for home sick. Crying for no one to give ear to.  So difficult to endure until i slept.

The most interesting part was station games. Hehehe....my group was chamPION!!!

Though tired but i couldn't sleep in the bus on the way back. It was raining outside. And i love the weather. Straightaway heading to dancing room once i reached church. Continue practicing with the "who am i" dance. Sweat a lot but i enjoyed it.

Back to church again in the evening for the Malay school.

For the very 1st time i fall asleep before 10pm. Couldn't describe the wonderful feeling, just so gratifying.

Phooooop. What a busy weekend~

Animals

So sien waiting for facebook to upload photos...So here i put some of my favourite

Pray for me please.

Still the same. Wanting other to understand me and my feeling. But people will never do that. So i have to change mine. Don't want to be so calculative with them. Expect nothing from them, sometimes even need to standby to take heart cause they would throw out harsh words ( for me it is harsh). So tired if keep on getting hurt. So i have to be strong and not letting other to influence my peace of mind. It is quite tough to go through with. So people! please pray for me so that i have strength to deal with.

Psalm27:13-14

Take heart. You'll gonna work it out. Just take heart. And pray for strength for going through everything.

I am still confident of this: i will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.  Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. Psalm27:13-14

Nana

 

It is a blessed to have a friend like you. 

wanted to know...

Wanted to figure out did he block me?  But would this help up anything? Mmm...i don't think so lo. It will then just make me think a lot again no matter he did block or not block you. So the best answer is to let him go. and let me go. You could start a new life. Try, you have to at least try to move on. 

insomnia

i couldn't sleep well these few nights. So horrible the feeling...
I love sleep i love sleep i love sleep i love sleep i love sleep....

i should just let him go

I'll keep the letter for myself. I won't let him know anything cause it won't change anything even after giving the letter.
Save us from suffering again.

Should i let him know?

I was writing him a letter, telling him what matters me when i said it doesn't matter last time.
Wondering is it a good idea to disturb him again. He seems to go on his life normally.
should i? If i really care about him, i shouldn't tell him right? I should let him go.
But how if the letter can clear both of the doubts between us?
Or at least help me to go out of the mess.
Should i?

I wanna sleep...so tired.

Friends

I don't like kinda friend that only came to care about you only when you are in trouble. With no follow up. Nothing. Rather just shut up and do nothing.

Random#

I was trying to be perfect, trying so hard, not to let everyone downs, then realize that i'm not gonna make it.
Haiz....takes time to swallow it..

Stress from?

Attending a 5 sessions of life management talk at church. Today having 2 chapters talking about self image and stress management.Though the talk is only about time management, didn't know that they taught so many things that i do not know.

So i'm kinda person that care very much of how people looked at me. I judge myself by others' views. I care what other people think of me. This is my weakness. She told me don't try to always focus on my weakness, try to focus on the good side. Let the good one pour away the bad one.

Talk about stress, basically my stress all come from inner one. My thoughts, my emotions and the pain. It says that the inner stress always play the major part of STRESS. I'm suffering these. Things that i don't wanna talk over and things that hunt me everytime when i am alone.

I myself don't even entirely understand myself, not to say any other person around me.
That's a good realization!

yes. i'm drunk.

I'm drunk. I know that it sounds stupid to sit in front of PC while i'm drunk. but yes, i'm drunk. seriously. I hate that feeling. People telling me wow....you are so good in drinking! let's go have a drink at another place...I'm so sick of it, like i never when there b4. So sick of it. And only this time, i feel that i'm so weak. And i hate that. So hate it.

Stay alive....everything gonna be good. I love you! So do Him.

You are not them, you never know.

You are not them, they are not you.
You have no idea what kinda life they have been gone through.
Not all have the chance to have wonderful life like you. They might heading a wrong way to look for their "wonderful" life.
Not all have the chance to meet so many people who are willing to teach life lessons.They might only received criticism.
Not all have the inborn talent to make them so unique. They have to really work hard.
Not all have the chance been loved by their parents. They have to find love.
Not all have the chance to be supported by their friends or families all the time. They have to look for support.
They have no back up. Not like you.
There are so many things that they can't control.
Even if they got the chance but they missed it, purposely,  it is their problem then.
They have to take the consequences.
No one in this world have the power and authority to judge others cause we are all the same.
Please be grateful and please stop judging others on your view.
Stop judging others like you know everything.
Beware, cause when you look down on others, you give space for satan to live into your mind, heart and soul.
Beware, cause people nowadays spoil their sinful nature, they follow what the world called freedom, and they influence you direct and indirectly.
Beware, cause your thought will become your words, and your words become actions, actions become habits, habits become character, character then become your destiny.
Don't ever repeat the same mistake.

扇子

这是我从沙巴带回来的木扇。

对我来说是满有纪念价值的。是在一个我很想去的市集买的。是我一个人拿了张地图从住宿走到那市集，而且还身负重任要买完所有要送人的纪念品。其实没想过会是自己一个人去的，以为同伴会陪着去，结果各有所求所以就落单了。这把木扇是我一眼见到就很喜欢的，就是买了它自己很爽很高兴，而且一路在逛的时候就靠它为我乘凉。沿途也是它陪着我回住宿去的。

回来诗巫就把它放在房间抽屉，也没用的着它。一直到前两个月才发现到打开它时，有一根木已经给虫给蛀了。

心里多么的不舍，就把它摊开来挂在空着的墙上。直到昨天我终于把它给丢了。原来它已经不能完全的给关上了。

纵使有很多的回忆，纵使有很多很多的不舍，我还是把它这折断丢了。

墙上现在已经放上两副从民都鲁带回来的两把扇子。一把那么凑巧就是和以前那副一模一样。

Stupid i kiss facebook goodbye

you're just quitting because of that silly guy!
What are you waiting for? Waiting for him to notice your inactive ka?
Let me tell you, he never bother to look on you!
So just move on your life. Do what you want and don't take his words so seriously, he's only human. A super high ego man.

Year book 2009

I never bother to have a look on my Uni yearbook album until today. Look at what i found^^

Mmmm.....
Post up the photos without permission of the owner, think is very rude le...

But...

It is too funny la!!!!
okay la, i think this 2 model won't angry with me cause we are from the same kampung.
Of course got a lot a lot of handsomes and pretties but too many so can't upload all.
And it doesn't mean that the above models are ugly or what, just feel that it is funny.
And the probability of getting shot by handsomes and pretties is higher than my sekampung's friends if i put their photo in public....


Hahaha...just so funny!

Fee to talk

You know what, i feel so free to talk whatever here!
cause no one will gonna read it~

wahahaha~~

i kiss facebook goodbye

Recently i started to stop signing in to facebook. Not knowing others' stuff make me easier.

But there is a voice pulling me, asking me to go to have a look.

"Try to care for others." 
Honestly, i don't mind to take time to care for others but i'm afraid i will make it too over for some of them.

"You will be missing a lot of things."  
But we still go on our life without friendster and facebook many many years ago. We did not miss anything right? Maybe more gossips to miss...

Am started to get rid of myself from facebook.
Not addicted as previous.
Treated it as a communicating tool.
Am hoping i can use it wisely to do something more meaningful, something that can bless others.

PP, hold firm to your principle! I totally support you! Muacks ^3^

triumph

I could pack my language in less than 30 minutes!!!! and no more pointless worries.

In conclusion: nothing is impossible.