Talked to him about the problem that exist in our relationship.
we both admitted that we had lots of misunderstanding and we had clarified all about it.
Except our status.
Both of us still have no idea about it.
Maybe it's because both of us are not yet ready to start a new relationship.
And i indeed had tried to change the way i threat him.
I started to let him know more about me.
My thinking.
My opinion.
And i hope we really can work it out together.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Back to normal
Backed from KL last night. Tired.
A bunch of stuffs need to be done in this week.
sigh...tired la..
physically and mentally.
There are something wrong with my relationship.
I started like to be alone again.
But i know deep inside my heart, i don't want to be like that.
It's not my personality.
But i have no choice.
I am reluctant.
A bunch of stuffs need to be done in this week.
sigh...tired la..
physically and mentally.
There are something wrong with my relationship.
I started like to be alone again.
But i know deep inside my heart, i don't want to be like that.
It's not my personality.
But i have no choice.
I am reluctant.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
2nd Day
Day 3 from quitting.
He woke up quite early this morning, earlier than me. He was really nice and thoughtful. He closed the curtain before i woke up. So sweet. Thanks, my sweet angel!
11am, we went out from vista komenwel, walked for 5 minutes to reach the rapid KL station. Didn't took long time for us to wait the rapid train. We stopped at Hang Tuah station then switched to monorail. We stopped at Bukit Bintang. He then brought me to Lot 10. That place was really gorgeous. All luxuries brands can be found at here. Definately this place is not my cup of tea. I can only had window shopping over there and took some photos. Then we moved to StarHill. Another luxury place that next to Lot 10. So, same again, window shopping only. After that we were heading to Pavillion. We saw the F1 Sepang were setting some booths at the centre of the lower ground in Pavillion. Displaying a few super sports cars. Well, as we were not interested at all about car, so we kept moving to the level 1. Thought we were had window shopping at here, but guess what we had found?
Haha, we found out at Padini Concepts there got promotion for some t shirt. It costs RM39 for 2 shirts. So we decided to buy one for each other (save money ba..). Before we moved on to the next place, we made a last visit to Voir. When i stepped in the shop, i noticed there were some sales on some clothes. I ended up to buy 2 short pants from there. And its only cost Rm 22.15 for 1!!! It means 2 short pants only cost Rm44.30! Wow, it was so cheap. Smile along the way to Sg Wang after that.
Oh ya...we had bought chicken chop from "ji lin" and had tea break at Theobroma. We had chocolates drinks at there. Gosh...that chocolate drinks were to die for.....i won't forget that taste!
Before we went to Sg Wang, guess what i found again? I saw Parkroyal Hotel! It's just beside xxx. Uurrgh..was supposed to be there this morning! Haiz....life is really unpredictable!
Forget about it, we kept on our footstep to Sg Wang. Quite crowded there. And i managed to buy the belts that i want and a singlet from a shop that hanging a banner " All shop RM15". Hihi..Not bad. After my stuffs, i started to eye on some souvenir for my friends. Spent around RM20 for it..Low Yat then was our next destination cause he wanted to buy Epson ink cartridge. Ended up with buying back smart hub that cost RM19 for myself.
zzz...sleepy now leh. Continue again tomorrow.
He woke up quite early this morning, earlier than me. He was really nice and thoughtful. He closed the curtain before i woke up. So sweet. Thanks, my sweet angel!
11am, we went out from vista komenwel, walked for 5 minutes to reach the rapid KL station. Didn't took long time for us to wait the rapid train. We stopped at Hang Tuah station then switched to monorail. We stopped at Bukit Bintang. He then brought me to Lot 10. That place was really gorgeous. All luxuries brands can be found at here. Definately this place is not my cup of tea. I can only had window shopping over there and took some photos. Then we moved to StarHill. Another luxury place that next to Lot 10. So, same again, window shopping only. After that we were heading to Pavillion. We saw the F1 Sepang were setting some booths at the centre of the lower ground in Pavillion. Displaying a few super sports cars. Well, as we were not interested at all about car, so we kept moving to the level 1. Thought we were had window shopping at here, but guess what we had found?
Haha, we found out at Padini Concepts there got promotion for some t shirt. It costs RM39 for 2 shirts. So we decided to buy one for each other (save money ba..). Before we moved on to the next place, we made a last visit to Voir. When i stepped in the shop, i noticed there were some sales on some clothes. I ended up to buy 2 short pants from there. And its only cost Rm 22.15 for 1!!! It means 2 short pants only cost Rm44.30! Wow, it was so cheap. Smile along the way to Sg Wang after that.
Oh ya...we had bought chicken chop from "ji lin" and had tea break at Theobroma. We had chocolates drinks at there. Gosh...that chocolate drinks were to die for.....i won't forget that taste!
Before we went to Sg Wang, guess what i found again? I saw Parkroyal Hotel! It's just beside xxx. Uurrgh..was supposed to be there this morning! Haiz....life is really unpredictable!
Forget about it, we kept on our footstep to Sg Wang. Quite crowded there. And i managed to buy the belts that i want and a singlet from a shop that hanging a banner " All shop RM15". Hihi..Not bad. After my stuffs, i started to eye on some souvenir for my friends. Spent around RM20 for it..Low Yat then was our next destination cause he wanted to buy Epson ink cartridge. Ended up with buying back smart hub that cost RM19 for myself.
zzz...sleepy now leh. Continue again tomorrow.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Day 2
Day 2 from officially quitting.
I'm suffering a lot.
I miss his voice, his kiss, his touch and everything about him.
I miss him like crazy, especially at night time.
He did sms me last night.
But i showed him a cold response.
I don't know what he would think about that.
He then did not message me this morning before i boarding.
After i reached LCCT, i managed to message him.
He did not reply also.
He then call me one hour later after my messange.
He asked whether i need his help and showed me how to go to my destination.
After i reached my friend's there, i messaged him again telling him that i reached.
He did not reply any words until now.
I'm lossing my direction.
Should i quit or keep continuing?
Do i make a wise decision to protect myself?
Is it the best solution for me now?
Damn.
I miss him
A lots
I'm suffering a lot.
I miss his voice, his kiss, his touch and everything about him.
I miss him like crazy, especially at night time.
He did sms me last night.
But i showed him a cold response.
I don't know what he would think about that.
He then did not message me this morning before i boarding.
After i reached LCCT, i managed to message him.
He did not reply also.
He then call me one hour later after my messange.
He asked whether i need his help and showed me how to go to my destination.
After i reached my friend's there, i messaged him again telling him that i reached.
He did not reply any words until now.
I'm lossing my direction.
Should i quit or keep continuing?
Do i make a wise decision to protect myself?
Is it the best solution for me now?
Damn.
I miss him
A lots
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Quitting
Tomorrow, i'll going to KL.
Alone.
And i had made up my mind that I'm officially quitting from the relationship.
I'm tired.
Cried for him for so many nights.
It's time to stop it and start all over again.
I won't regret it cause I've try my very best to care him and love him,
is just he's not the right person,
and it's not the right time.
i think so.
But still, i need some time to totally get him out of my mind.
I have no idea how long will it takes...
Will i manage to get another Mr right again...
Alone.
And i had made up my mind that I'm officially quitting from the relationship.
I'm tired.
Cried for him for so many nights.
It's time to stop it and start all over again.
I won't regret it cause I've try my very best to care him and love him,
is just he's not the right person,
and it's not the right time.
i think so.
But still, i need some time to totally get him out of my mind.
I have no idea how long will it takes...
Will i manage to get another Mr right again...
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Disappointment + Hopeless
Looks like there will be another disappointment for me. Days passed by, there were no news at all about the interview. I should not put much hope on it.
Babee, its time to have another plan. Have to get rid of this from my mind.
Well, let's tall about this coming Saturday. What should i do and who should i spent together with? Haiz, no idea at all. Struggling in between what Allen told me and my own thought. But i think Allen has more right than me. Since he got more experiences than me and he's also kinda person like HIM.
Sigh..
Don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more....................
Babee, its time to have another plan. Have to get rid of this from my mind.
Well, let's tall about this coming Saturday. What should i do and who should i spent together with? Haiz, no idea at all. Struggling in between what Allen told me and my own thought. But i think Allen has more right than me. Since he got more experiences than me and he's also kinda person like HIM.
Sigh..
Don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more....................
Friday, February 6, 2009
Phew...
Just went out from my supervisor's room. Thank god that i finally came out with my questionnaire. Last Wednesday i had been scored by her like shit... After all the 'serious modification' (according to her is very serious la), finally can pass it.
What should i do now is go and find a fax machine to fax my letter. I rent the car already, is around 2pm. Since nana had her lunch, so i just stay at lab to surf on internet till 2.
Meet with Raymond in msn, talk about lately life here, complaining about him and my bad luck since i backed to u. I noticed that he's not an ideal partner as well. Or maybe because we are just friend, so he didn't showed any "sincere consolation" but just keep on kepo-ing on things that happen to me. Haiz, this is what it call man!
What should i do now is go and find a fax machine to fax my letter. I rent the car already, is around 2pm. Since nana had her lunch, so i just stay at lab to surf on internet till 2.
Meet with Raymond in msn, talk about lately life here, complaining about him and my bad luck since i backed to u. I noticed that he's not an ideal partner as well. Or maybe because we are just friend, so he didn't showed any "sincere consolation" but just keep on kepo-ing on things that happen to me. Haiz, this is what it call man!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
HE
Just finished went through his blog. He had mentioned about me, but only about the mata sepet! And said that i'm in his gasp, just everything didn't go according to the plan. Thanks for telling me this.
Well, i would like to let you know that i'm not so fancy on you till that! Yes, i admit that i admire you, but it doesn't means that i will follow everything that you said or what you want. The reason why i just want to be friend with you is because i think you are touchy-feely kinda person and i don't really appreciate this. No thanks my dear. He likes to play around with gals. Fooling them, making them laugh and so on...don't want to mention it. He should knew.
And i started to notice that he is not as ideal as what i thought before.
Well, i would like to let you know that i'm not so fancy on you till that! Yes, i admit that i admire you, but it doesn't means that i will follow everything that you said or what you want. The reason why i just want to be friend with you is because i think you are touchy-feely kinda person and i don't really appreciate this. No thanks my dear. He likes to play around with gals. Fooling them, making them laugh and so on...don't want to mention it. He should knew.
And i started to notice that he is not as ideal as what i thought before.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Friends?!
Can anyone tell me what is the meaning of friend?
And please named me the category of friend?
And please named me the category of friend?
True friend
someone that are willing to help you
truly from their heart
try their very best to help you
without giving you any bullshit excuses
truly from their heart
try their very best to help you
without giving you any bullshit excuses
Fake friend
Someone that will only help you when they are convenient to do so
won’t try their best to help you
but just giving you loads of bullshit excuses
and think that it’s none of her business to give people a hand!
At the same time always try to take advantages on the others...
How come the world is so unfair!
I have to grab so hard to get the things that I want!
But look at the others!
They can have all of it
SO EASY...
won’t try their best to help you
but just giving you loads of bullshit excuses
and think that it’s none of her business to give people a hand!
At the same time always try to take advantages on the others...
How come the world is so unfair!
I have to grab so hard to get the things that I want!
But look at the others!
They can have all of it
SO EASY...
Home sick
I miss sibu
I miss all those movies
I miss 3c
I miss the food
I miss Allen Lau
I miss Raymond
I miss Terrence
I miss Jing Jing
I miss all of them...