Is saturday night

Wanna cut my hair as short as this....

My church is giving me more and more ministry . A few are been taken up without my knowledge. They just text me and tell me that i'm what and what leader and need to come for meeting. Mission team is the 1st one. But since is been a month already so i accepted it. But now come again as leader to serve as "zhao dai yuan" in fellowship from Mac until June. Sms me asking me to go for meeting this coming Sunday. And i don't even now who is the 1 sms to me...Last night, one of the.. don't how to call him...cause coufuse with they position and the term that they used. Just call him the head of youth fellowship. He came and asked me to do him a favor. He asked me to join the Malay ministry. As Malay teacher. And just now i received my friend's message asking me to join a course from church. I feel like wanna take all of these but i know i'm not gonna do it well if i do it together. Unless, i really really put a lot of effort on them...But i'm lacking of time to rest. And most of the time i enjoyed been alone. Private time. What to do?


i'm hungry now=.=

Night in Sibu is very quiet and piece.
"di da di da"...raining outside...
I laid on my bed,
listening to my favourite songs,
blogging, facebook-ing, chatting...
Feel like i'm old enough to have sparkling night life.
Lazy also.

Halfly recover from flu, is so nice to be breath so smooth.
What else should i complaint?

Cny is aroud the corner.
No special feeling.
A bit like yuacks! Here come again busy households...
How come my colleagues are so excited for cny,
so good mood to decorate office and their house.
So i tried to buy some cny accessories (stickers).
I gave up that night and tore all the stickers.
I've no cell of art at all!!!

Well, there are some that i like during cny.
I can shower my dogs (other times are lazy...)
I can officially get wet without scolding by mom when cleaning the extremely long gate.
I can officially get drunk
I got angpow to receive^^ (Some thought i was married~.~)
I can hang out together with friends who knows me well (nana~, andrew~, jinyi~wahahaha~~)
Oh ya, my brother is coming back...House has been quiet for quite a long time (except when i started to laugh "no point")

My mom used to say cny is very tired, i don't get it when i was a child but now i know.
Guess what?
It means i'm an adult!
Old people old people...

^^

Hurray!!!
I'm going to Sabah lo~~~this time~
With him^^
Wahahaha....
Never thought of having a trip with him alone.

**HAPPY**

People always make judgments.
They judge according to their views.
They do whatever they feel comfortable with and ignored the challenging one and new stuffs.
When they face with those who are able to take new challenges,
they'll then complaining them are odd.
They will form their own group with same characteristics and discriminate the odd one.
When they grow older, they'll then pass this kinda mentality to their next generations.
This cycle kept on repeating again and again. Kinda boring and conservative.
Poor them. Never knew what's wrong with them. only think of what's wrong with the others!

When boss is not around, they would act like kids out of their parents.
Even when i led the cell group for teenager in church, they all knew what is self discipline.
Hardly to imagine....

如果我不在诗巫

如果我不在诗巫，今天就没人会请假陪妈去看病。
她应该会很难受吧。
如果我不在诗巫，她应该会很慌吧。
什么不舒服的也没人懂。
如果我不在诗巫，她应该会很任性吧。
要逼了才愿意去挨一针。
如果我不在诗巫，她就会闲的去管人家的是非吧。
惹得一身腥恐怕。
如果我不在诗巫，没人会带她去刮痧，放血吧。
因为她连人家家都不晓得在哪儿。

如果我不在诗巫，今晚就没人好带你去看医生讨打针吧。
就那么好使唤咯。
如果我不在诗巫，你的脾气应该会更坏吧。
每天就会欺负自家人。
如果我不在诗巫，应该也没谁会跟你撒娇讨钱吧。
我只是想减轻你荷包的重量而已.

原来我还是有用的，在诗巫。

A/C executive

If i'm not mistaken, it is always the A/C department to prepare the salary for the workers.
That suppose is in their job description.
If they couldn't manage to come out the salary in time, they should have rush for it.
But what i heard were
"If anyone calls me, just tell them i'm not free, no matter who! I need to do the payroll!"
"I'm so damn busy, i don't know. I'm not free, i need to do the payroll!"
"Purchaser, I can't open cheque for you today, i'm busy, give it to me tomorrow."
"Office boy, jangan keluar dulu, aku ada lagi belum siap. tunggu ah..."

头很痛！
真他妈的我真的烦够了！
好人真的不好当。
当坏人的还会过的比我好啊！

左躲右避的有用吗？
还不是让自己辛苦。
谁会在乎？

真搞不懂是什么世界！！！！！！

Conversation

"Asshole Dude!@!@!
Shouldn't be my business but i really couldn't stand!!!
So fake!!!
You will pay the price for everything!!!"

"If you're smart enough and behave yourself, am sure you'll not bother to care about!"

"There is no such thing as free lunch! You're gonna pay for everything. Is just the matter of time."

If i'm crazy enough

I'll go anywhere that i want without waiting so long.
I'll look for part time job like bartender.
I'll think of different ways to get $ for my travelling fund.
I'll continuously watch 2 or 3 movies alone in cinema.
I'll get a visa then go off Malaysia to start a new life.
I'll stay 1 or 2 years in Living Water Village.
I'll get pregnant if i want a baby.

SElfish

I'm kinda worry about my future.
my financial plan
my life partner.
my career
everything...

Should i grab every opportunity that i met to make myself wealthy?
Even though it does not following His words??

~.~

I should be happy for everything!
I shouldn't compare myself with others.
I should be grateful...
It's awful to compare our life with others.
You'll never satisfy and it only makes you become miserable!

It's still raining

I'm sorry d.
I shouldn't blame on you for putting myself in that situation.
I'm the one that causing argument.
If i could behave and be good, it won't then bring up so many topics.
So that it won't create any chances for you to blame on anyone!

I'm sorry m.
Everytime anything happen on us, you'll be the one be blamed.
You're such a good model for us.
Tolerate, patient, caring, love, sacrificing...

I just want you happy.

Wednesday is over

Have a happy and safe journey!

I'm blue.
Butterflies.

Sky is red and keep on pouring water to the ground.

Had argument with Sia in the office. I hate that.
But i managed to not to hide myself alone again.
End up we were telling others that we have a faught^^

Ping pong game arrived in our office!

N, i wanna call you cause i know your "don't know anything" voice sure will relieve me^^

I, don't really have mood to attend your birthday party...but you are...
never mind, no other plans too.

Almost forgot the gathering with S in Kuching...
Ergh**** how am i gonna plan for my leave??





i'm not gonna read your mind.

When You Kiss Me

Special dedicate to the one that i loved.


Shania Twain - When You Kiss Me

This could be it I think I'm in love
It's love this time
It just seems to fit I think I'm in love
This love is mine
I can see you with me when I'm older
All my lonely night are finally over
You took the weight of the world off my
shoulders (the world just goes away)
Oh when you kiss me
I know you miss me
and when you're with me
The world just goes away
The way you hold me
The way you show me
that you adore me--oh when you kiss me
Oh yeah
You are the one I think I'm in love
Life has begun
I can see the two of us together
I know I'm gonna be with you forever
Love couldn't be any better
Oh when you kiss me
I know you miss me
and when you're with me
The world just goes away
The way you hold me
The way you show me
that you adore me--oh the world goes away
And when you kiss me
I know you miss me
When you kiss me
Oh the world just goes away

我有话要说

印尼短宣回来一星期了都懒的动“笔”。不过还真的怕耽误久了会忘记一些些宝贵的记忆，所以多累都得写些心得。
这印尼之旅还真有意思。

先说说请假。

请了一次又一次的才批。越请越没信心。直到第三次，很真诚的把一切都交托于祂。没原因的，我就是相信我一定去的成。与老板也讨价还价后，终于达成协议。我丢了一张机票，多了些加班，三天无薪假。虽然听起来很吃亏，可是一切都很值得！

事前对这个短宣还有些动摇。因为钱，因为心烦意乱，因为懂自己有其它事烦住我，所以对这趟短宣有些心虚。好比如工作社会让我有些迷失。人与人之间的关系拿捏不好搞得我筋疲力尽；毫无意义的玩乐让我纳闷；一切都很不真实。之前对宣教的负担似乎越来越轻。我怕，我怕自己会远离祂让魔鬼得逞。我怕我会变成哪些我不喜欢的人一样。

感谢娜娜及牧师，她们给了我很多支持及鼓励。在我觉得我很错时，她们没嫌弃我，指责我，反而为我设想为我祷告。也感谢他愿意再次的给我机会，在我以为毫无转机时，给了我希望。真的是几经风波才得以顺利去的成印尼！另外还有安德鲁，谢谢他为我奉献了三分一的费用。祂的恩典真的够我们用。

在中心也只待了一晚，可以说只有几小时而已。庆幸都会认识其他的组员们，只是有些不太熟。刚开始有些不习惯，因为带着上次的回忆回到那儿。又带着上次的方式，所以处处会把这次的队友和以前的来比较，真是不应该。可是慢慢也看出大家都很用心去行每件事，只是大家的方式不一样。在这里我不太能像其他队友那样能一一的形容出每一为的特质及他们的好。我只能说大家的不一样才会造就我们之间精彩的火花！

去印尼路途上，幸好有娜娜的陪伴，虽然她还有其她很要好的朋友，却愿意和我配对。开始真的和大家似乎没什么话好说，自己也懒的主动，难得可以闭嘴还蛮享受的。 不过路途真的太远了，十个钟！看见其他的朋友都很好动，大家都很兴奋，慢慢也就加入他们的行列当中。静下来时刹那间觉得自己好老好老。我好想要回我的记忆，种种大学那无忧无虑的日子，简单又开心，是那种轻而易举就可以让自己开心的日子，是我现在很难才会寻到的开心！就这样，路途又说又笑又吃又喝又拉又睡的到达活水村。

一下车，就听到有人喊Kak PingPing!熟悉的面孔出现在我面前，给了她们扎实的拥抱。还有哪儿的狗儿，我好喜欢，只是小狗只剩一只了。头一两天没有特别的兴奋或特别，可能是第二次了。而且来了很多洋人，不怎么热情的洋人。很闷，是心闷。心想怎么会这样？为什么和上次的感觉不一样。。。