Very sleepy the 1st working day after cny break. Soon gonna use to it i guess.
My cny holiday was simply awesome!!
Managed to shower my dogs twice! And their lovely yet smelly "house" too.
Involved in cooking which i day dream night dream for so long!
Finally i am able to give away ang pow!!! (to my parent and brother la =.=)
I had steam fish as my supper!!! Super luxury for me!
Got Foochow red wine chicken mee soup to eat!!! 1 bottle not enough, 2 not enough...3 or 4 bottles baru enough!! Super delicious.....*drooling now*
Pround for gaining weight as it makes me looked 丰满！
Daddy and mummy actually treated me super nice! Especially my dad!! want what get what!!
It was sweet to talk with my mum about JL too! He is funny. Really.
Love the feeling of surrounding by close friends and family!
Although i only had a week time with them, but the memories are full enough for me to go on my life here^^

But no OS as i mentined on the last post cause i got no chance to meet those doctors and pharmacists...

Am gonna made my life interesting here!! Wuhu~~

以前中学时，很会读书的那几位，也就是前五明还是十名内的，今天真的看到他们的成果了！保守的家乡，他们的选择大多是医生还是药剂师。兽医有，就是我咯！呵呵，没办到后来，有时真的有少壮不努力，老大图悲伤的感觉。很多衣锦还乡回到我家乡医院服务了。对我来说，他们的世界是单纯很多。朋友圈都是那一圈的。没有像在私人公司或上市公司那样，得为公司的钱途努力，明争暗夺的，人际上也复杂许多，没有所谓的政府level，加薪升职不是随着政府内定的时间跑，一切随最大粒的话而跑。他们就不一样了，似乎 一切都很透明化，一样的level，你有什么，我就有什么。而且常常外人都觉得行医的都比较高人一等，我们是公司打杂的，做的多好，都还是一样。唯一比他们好的是，我们被训练出得有好的应变能力。（这就是酸葡萄效应）

好像听起来羡慕他们？也不是咯，知道他们真的是很努力很努力熬过来的。是要有先天的条件——金钱，可是如果他们没努力，读医科还真不是所有人都行。反之我的科系可真的是比较简单咯，呵呵，或许是这样，我到今天都还是觉得我很幸福咯。我——也不赖嘛~

我知道新年回家遇到他们，我一定会有很多OS在心里。Oops....

*OS means 内心独白

My problematic boss has gone finally. Not sure he was fired by the management or what,he just left himself very mysteriously and very sudden. To my surprise too, he only told me a few minutes before he left. He left with almost all the task unfinished. The only thing he is clear was his expenses claim and his medical claim's amount. Not bad.

Thanks uncle, you made me lots of stories here.

Lets see how it goes here...

I had a terrific weekend with JL in Miri!
Told ya i love homey type, so this time around i really did it:
Me getting ready in the kitchen for the dinner, and he washing the floor outside with water pump!
I just love the way he flirted at me through the window when he tried to pack up the wire outside of the house
and when i was trying to help him he stopped me and told me he can handle it by himself !
I know i am stupid by feeling happy only with those.
But it's just freaking made me so sweet.
And to be able to cook by myself top up the sweetness!
Mad sweet and happy with the Kam Pua too!

I think most of the couple in a relationship sure wonder how come there is no secret textbook for courtship or so called relationship when they are having problems.

When I am having trouble in love, I have that kinda thinking too.

I have 3 serious relationships.
The 1^st happened in a young age, too young I should say; I don’t even know how to love myself.
The 2^nd came in a huge rush crush; I don’t even know what commitment is.
This one came in without a hint. To my surprise, it is the greatest I ever had. And I am just nice to be ready. ( Is this explain “the best always come when you are least expected?”)

Am I doing well in this? No. Not really. But there is no benchmark too to what extend it is called good enough or where is not good enough.

Sometime I have hesitation.
Especially when he talks rude to me.
And when he was so rational and sounded like I should not have putting myself in moody/emo/PMS mode.

But after a night rest, my hesitation gone.

And the same old feeling comes back again towards him like we never argued before.
This cycle has been repeated a few times since we started the 1^st one.
What I am trying to say here is there are a lot of works out for maintaining a good and healthy relationship.
There is no free lunch and there is no shortcut. Those are all honey coated lies.

For future…

There is plan in Him. Things are not allowed to happen without His permission. Meaning things that happened surely are allowed by Him. I just have to wait patiently and wait till He provides what I need. The good ones.

i just guess...

Point	When…	I will…	He then…	Me then…	Reason why he did that is probably because…
1	My boss cannot make clear decision	go farther than him to dig out the root so that I can solve the problem	Will forever be the same, no improvement, becoming an annoying old man	Will dig out a lot of ideas for my future used. Train my brain to not be too “old style”. Always learning new!	He is a bit chicken plus not having the initiative to figure out company culture. So he afraid of making decision. Every decision he made has the risk to kena complain or shot, so he used this way to avoid it
2	My boss cannot protect me (As he won’t take care of his subordinate)	find my way to face it and solve it. I will pay more attention on where I had mistake before so that same mistakes will not be repeated.	Be the chicken king..	Be a queen!!! Strong shielder!	He feels that his boss not protecting him too. So subconsciously he did the same thing to me. Understandable
3	My boss cannot provide information for support	Insist to let him know (orally or by mail) though knowing that he won’t help. *This feeling is so damn awful. Knowing that i won’t get back any help from him* This is to avoid he accused me back for not telling him everything when something happen (as an excuse) which he did it to me before.	Forever not going to familiar with HR related information	Gather more and more information, one day you guys will regret when I leave your company. By then you all gonna miss me.	He really doesn’t know about the company and he is so comfortable to his comfort zone. He lazy or really busy to learn it. Or maybe he is not so capable, yet afraid people will found out.
4	My boss works slow. As in really slow, some more always use “I don’t know” as lame excuse.	Feel ashamed when my boss say “I don’t know” in front of others.  I will not follow his pace although he always said not in hurry. Cause in the end still I need to cover up all the mess, including the mess of his slow work.	Forever slow and never be effective	Good in covering people’s shit! Although I hate it but I know whenever I go, there’re shits everywhere.  Treat is as a skill.	he is not so capable. He knows that but he thinks that he is too “big” to admit his own weakness. He can’t put down his ego.
5	My boss having discussion with me, he always told me to have to think a way to cut down my admin job by doing it more effectively. This bring back to the point 2. He is like still not realising that he is the head of HR & Admin	Have to Take care of admin stuff alone. And I am kinda proud cause I don’t feel handicap even without his help.	Know nothing about admin stuff. He can’t even name the price when he did the budgeting. I wonder how he get all those figure from.	Can know all those weird and interesting stationeries and their market prices. When I pass over stationery shop, I will only have 2 PS in my mind. either too expensive, or so cheap. Cause I have the benchmark.	he really running out of idea. And he is a man, he feels that he is “big” ,he shouldn’t touch on admin stuff. That would be shame if his friends or family knows it.