What do i want?

I just want a simple life.
I want a guy that loves me.
A guy with a job that he loves,
but not too ambitious. (i know i'm selfish...)
I want a simple relationship.
A relationship that won't burden me!
I try to picture my future,
but i see no one there for me right now!

Perhaps,
single is the most suitable status for me right now.
It's hard.
Really really hard for me to make any decision now!

A Battle of relationship

Went back to sibu for 2 days already, nothing much changed here.
Just the feeling of being home was not the same as previous.
Keep on struggling...
What makes me think of going out from here??
I have no idea...
I still remember my initial plan is after graduate, i'll find a job in Sibu, then can live a happy and relax life with all the loves one.

Is it because of him?
Is it?
If he never appear in my life, would i still want to leave Sibu?
I might feel comfortable just be in Sibu...
I think so.

But i feel lonely in Sibu.
Yes, i know i got my family here.
But i want someone that really knows me
Knows everything about me,
everything!

Friends said that i can always made wise decision in many things,
except my love relationship.
I'll become an idiot.

That's the reason i kept on thinking about where to stay.
I don't want to make any decision only because of him.
I don't want to follow my heart this time.
I'm scare i'll do the same mistake again.
Even though he had told me just think of what i want!

But life is not that simple!