People went through their life differently everyday.
Nana was crying for friends' leaving. Poor nana, every year at this time she has to cry once. But i'm sure your friendship with them would be like us. So don't worry. More friends are waiting for you for the coming sem.
Jennie is busying for her wedding preparation. Happy for her but once i saw her blog with her wedding gown, i felt like "wow, time passed so fast....the gal that used to have complicated relationship with Sam now is going to be someone's wife!" Sorry Jen... haha. Hard to imagine you wearing wedding dress, red somemore...U got to be happy forever and ever!
Jon was busy with his job as employee, as cello student, as His follower and everything.....Well i'm glad that you have Him with you. Few months ago, your faith wasn't as strong as now. Keep it up! cause i need you to be my light when my battery is dying. So that we can re-charge each other.
Big stomach is busy with his exam. Lazy pig, kept on thinking limteh limteh.. i could feel that he's craving for a partner but luckily he does not simply hook up any girls. Am sure God will prepare one for you stomach boy.
xiaocass was going back to KK. I heard a familiar name, emperor. I miss KK. From her, i saw students' life again.
Larry had a great time in his college. Proud of your CA. "we rarely meet again, but we'll all meet in heaven". It teaches me soul connection is better than physical connection.
I should be grateful for what i have but not complaining for what i don't have. Nisa, i will run for you. Do not give up.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Macam mana ni?
Life is?
Like spending a week at Indon with all the kids. Cook with them, swam in the river, sat on the top of truck and quickily sneaked into the truck when met with Pastor Ronny! running here and there barefoot. Washing tons and tons dishes and learnt Bahasa Indon... Kakak capet la!
Like studying in UNIMAS. Playing and chatting all the times and only studied during exam weeks. After exam week sure gone crazy. Slept 1 or 2 hours a day was normal for that time. Sakura food court, my favourite place during dinner time. Good view plus meeting lots of friends there. Late at 3 o'clock am walked from Bunga Raya through Sakura bridge then having breakfast at Allamanda red cafe when ramadan. These were the memories that i have to keep it till my grandchild ask bout my Uni time! No matter what happen, i must keep it!!!
Like a robot, going for a routine task everyday. Meeting with friends gossiping about who is handsome who is prettier who get pregnant who earn big money who went where who he or she with....
Meaningless
Like a mentor to teach younger in church. Doing bookmarks for them (no time to do this week) and my minutes of meeting(-.-"), practising and practising...
there is no soulmate here if compare to Samarahan. But all are very nice person. At least.
So life is as a daughter, student, friend, partner, employee...bla bla bla........
Good night Thursday!
Like spending a week at Indon with all the kids. Cook with them, swam in the river, sat on the top of truck and quickily sneaked into the truck when met with Pastor Ronny! running here and there barefoot. Washing tons and tons dishes and learnt Bahasa Indon... Kakak capet la!
Like studying in UNIMAS. Playing and chatting all the times and only studied during exam weeks. After exam week sure gone crazy. Slept 1 or 2 hours a day was normal for that time. Sakura food court, my favourite place during dinner time. Good view plus meeting lots of friends there. Late at 3 o'clock am walked from Bunga Raya through Sakura bridge then having breakfast at Allamanda red cafe when ramadan. These were the memories that i have to keep it till my grandchild ask bout my Uni time! No matter what happen, i must keep it!!!
Like a robot, going for a routine task everyday. Meeting with friends gossiping about who is handsome who is prettier who get pregnant who earn big money who went where who he or she with....
Meaningless
Like a mentor to teach younger in church. Doing bookmarks for them (no time to do this week) and my minutes of meeting(-.-"), practising and practising...
there is no soulmate here if compare to Samarahan. But all are very nice person. At least.
So life is as a daughter, student, friend, partner, employee...bla bla bla........
Good night Thursday!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
原来
原来一直以来你都是这么看我的。原来你从来都没放下过。原来破裂的镜子是那么的不堪。原来那破裂的痕迹是那么的痛彻心扉。
我一直蒙在鼓里。以为一切安好。
原来是这种感觉的，原来是那么的不好受。而我却从来没警惕过你的不好受。
只活在自己世界当中真的很可怕，因为你不知道你醒来时是何今何时，错过了什么，还有谁在等著你。原来最痛心的就是如此。
真的好措手不及。一下子迷失了。原来所努力追求的都模糊了。好像一切都不重要了。好像活在不切实际当中。天亮醒来一阵不习惯，原来不是梦。是真的。
自怜自悔也够了。于事无补，要面对。
包容。包容。还是包容。痛的语句我会包容。原谅我的无声。失望是应该的。是正常的。因为我也会。不过不要被它给蒙蔽了。要记住。我会忍耐。我一定会。我一定会的。虽然有千千白白万个不愿意，我学顺服。以前以为顺服两个字很容易。原来是要学的。原来需要时间及不间断的说服自己。不断的把自己从洞穴里玩挖出来。不断的要自己出来。不让自己软弱。还在学习。
早晚的讯息是代表一整天的思念。
我等。等祂的应许。
我一直蒙在鼓里。以为一切安好。
原来是这种感觉的，原来是那么的不好受。而我却从来没警惕过你的不好受。
只活在自己世界当中真的很可怕，因为你不知道你醒来时是何今何时，错过了什么，还有谁在等著你。原来最痛心的就是如此。
真的好措手不及。一下子迷失了。原来所努力追求的都模糊了。好像一切都不重要了。好像活在不切实际当中。天亮醒来一阵不习惯，原来不是梦。是真的。
自怜自悔也够了。于事无补，要面对。
包容。包容。还是包容。痛的语句我会包容。原谅我的无声。失望是应该的。是正常的。因为我也会。不过不要被它给蒙蔽了。要记住。我会忍耐。我一定会。我一定会的。虽然有千千白白万个不愿意，我学顺服。以前以为顺服两个字很容易。原来是要学的。原来需要时间及不间断的说服自己。不断的把自己从洞穴里玩挖出来。不断的要自己出来。不让自己软弱。还在学习。
早晚的讯息是代表一整天的思念。
我等。等祂的应许。
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
warning letter
最近收到了對我信心打擊蠻大的信。
一直以為自己很不錯，很了不起，
原來也不過如此。
一直以為我有我自己一套生活原則，
誰犯戒我就會不客氣，
原來不是對所有人都行的通。
一直以為我做了很多很多，
原來別人不是這樣看的。
我是太高估自己嗎？
一直持守的信念：
一定要坐滿一年，
每天做的像雜工一樣也不用緊，
總有東西好學的。
要謙卑，
從低學起（不過自己好像沒有很謙卑）
現在好像很難再堅持。
想不到一個原因讓我持續下去。
我也開始抱怨了。
到底我的堅持是對的嗎？
之后朋友們有慫恿我去新加坡，
我真的動搖了。
尋了谷歌，認真尋了其它國家看有適合我的嗎。
找了牧師為我禱告。
無助的淚也流了。
唯有禱告。
唯有禱告。
昨天媽發生了小車禍。
電單車倒了。
幸好沒舍大礙。
不過腦海就想，幸好我在她身邊。
如果我真的出國了，應該我會很著急吧。
今天聽到鄰居哥哥要去古晉做工，
心又想為什么不要先去古晉做做看，
非得要出國那么遠，去那么陌生的地方！？
還是禱告。
求明確的指示。
一直以為自己很不錯，很了不起，
原來也不過如此。
一直以為我有我自己一套生活原則，
誰犯戒我就會不客氣，
原來不是對所有人都行的通。
一直以為我做了很多很多，
原來別人不是這樣看的。
我是太高估自己嗎？
一直持守的信念：
一定要坐滿一年，
每天做的像雜工一樣也不用緊，
總有東西好學的。
要謙卑，
從低學起（不過自己好像沒有很謙卑）
現在好像很難再堅持。
想不到一個原因讓我持續下去。
我也開始抱怨了。
到底我的堅持是對的嗎？
之后朋友們有慫恿我去新加坡，
我真的動搖了。
尋了谷歌，認真尋了其它國家看有適合我的嗎。
找了牧師為我禱告。
無助的淚也流了。
唯有禱告。
唯有禱告。
昨天媽發生了小車禍。
電單車倒了。
幸好沒舍大礙。
不過腦海就想，幸好我在她身邊。
如果我真的出國了，應該我會很著急吧。
今天聽到鄰居哥哥要去古晉做工，
心又想為什么不要先去古晉做做看，
非得要出國那么遠，去那么陌生的地方！？
還是禱告。
求明確的指示。
糾紛
這兩天我那樓辦公室只有幾只小貓，老板也不在，感覺這公司好像蠻凄慘。
漢萍一個人忙進忙出的，我也愛莫能助。
煩了幾天的我，今天也比較能適應了，唯有禱告。
公司上上下下好像都好有問題，小的做不了主意，大的給我拖。
夾在中間的就非常辛苦。真的心有余而力不足。也沒那種動力了，磨也給磨光啦！
漢萍說她做了一年，老公說她蒼老了很多。
我說我做了半年多，笑容給丟了。
說著說著既然說起別人的長短。
她原來也不是很喜歡他，為的是大家同事一場，和氣些所以忍。
原來大家心里都私下都有評論他。
我也有啦。
不過就懂了多一些不為人知的事。
這是什么世界啊。。。
每個人都是嘴上一套，行動一套。
每個人心里就好像福音橋里“罪”那一頁的圖畫，
里頭住滿了蛇蝎毒蟲，好毒哦。真的很毒。
昨晚剛靈修說好不制造糾紛的，所以自己也要避免這些話題了。
雖然聽了沒害到人，不過自己就很不好受咯！
原來不制造糾紛不是為別人好，最重要還是為我自個兒好，
使我能保持中立的面對每一個人，
使我沒有苦毒的想法。
漢萍一個人忙進忙出的，我也愛莫能助。
煩了幾天的我，今天也比較能適應了，唯有禱告。
公司上上下下好像都好有問題，小的做不了主意，大的給我拖。
夾在中間的就非常辛苦。真的心有余而力不足。也沒那種動力了，磨也給磨光啦！
漢萍說她做了一年，老公說她蒼老了很多。
我說我做了半年多，笑容給丟了。
說著說著既然說起別人的長短。
她原來也不是很喜歡他，為的是大家同事一場，和氣些所以忍。
原來大家心里都私下都有評論他。
我也有啦。
不過就懂了多一些不為人知的事。
這是什么世界啊。。。
每個人都是嘴上一套，行動一套。
每個人心里就好像福音橋里“罪”那一頁的圖畫，
里頭住滿了蛇蝎毒蟲，好毒哦。真的很毒。
昨晚剛靈修說好不制造糾紛的，所以自己也要避免這些話題了。
雖然聽了沒害到人，不過自己就很不好受咯！
原來不制造糾紛不是為別人好，最重要還是為我自個兒好，
使我能保持中立的面對每一個人，
使我沒有苦毒的想法。
Sunday, April 4, 2010
kuching
J&J. I used to have supper with nana, peggy and san long at here. ANd always with san long's car and along the way we were bullshit everything...That night i had it with Mr banana man and Mr Potato. Well not going out with him wasn't a bad thing, at least i could catch up with my junior. Ohya...this is the place i showed him his birthday present^^ suprised!!
The stays at Unimas really cheer me up~ (ignored the sleepless night and sempit as ikan masin....T.T) The "little gal" behind me is a kid, who likes me a lot. ANd i think everyone knows about it. She would worry bout my relationship issues and always on my side. I never knew that a pelik pelik gal b4 would be so thoughtful nowaday. Just sometimes act like kid... And your sushi message really warm my heart. Sweet ^^