A Battle of relationship

Went back to sibu for 2 days already, nothing much changed here.
Just the feeling of being home was not the same as previous.
Keep on struggling...
What makes me think of going out from here??
I have no idea...
I still remember my initial plan is after graduate, i'll find a job in Sibu, then can live a happy and relax life with all the loves one.

Is it because of him?
Is it?
If he never appear in my life, would i still want to leave Sibu?
I might feel comfortable just be in Sibu...
I think so.

But i feel lonely in Sibu.
Yes, i know i got my family here.
But i want someone that really knows me
Knows everything about me,
everything!

Friends said that i can always made wise decision in many things,
except my love relationship.
I'll become an idiot.

That's the reason i kept on thinking about where to stay.
I don't want to make any decision only because of him.
I don't want to follow my heart this time.
I'm scare i'll do the same mistake again.
Even though he had told me just think of what i want!

But life is not that simple!