What an Emo weekend...
Phew...finally get through it!
So basically i've figure out a way to encourage myself on my ministries.
Since the main reasons for me getting sick of the church ministries are people and tireness, i'll make myself flexible and i won't force myself to do something that i'm not so willing to do.
All the meetings i'll weight the seriousness and how urgent before i go, and i won't bullshit-ing much with people cause that will make them think that "Wow!! WPP likes to hear me bullshit-ing!" "Let's bullshit with her everytime we met!"
I know i'm kinda weird but this is the only way i could tolerate now, before i find out some better ideas.
It is also to ensure that i can still enjoy my ministrys life. But not lossing the passionate on it.

Focus on what i want.