I will be meeting a guy who claimed that he is so into my sepet eyes tomorrow.
I was suggesting to bring my friend but he said would it be awkward later if we end up no topic to share?
So i guess he is just another MW.

I feel like i'm so careful now, like an old lady to watch out every steps that i moved, every decisions that i made. Why not simply do whatever i want?

And by the time i said the above statement, i know i'm not totally obey to be someone that He wants. Cause i'm still thinking of going out to have fun with friends. Not wrong is it? But i am kinda person that easily mix around with, especially with male. People might think that it is good to have this kinda personality but if i'm lacking of self discipline and self control, self destroying is my final destination! So ironic!

When i was writing this blog, i recalled back the experience that i had, again, that destroyed my entire relationship with someone. 

I guess i got the answer for my question. In the end of the day, i will hurt the one i loved and the one who loves me. So i need to take heart like what He taught.

“Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life" Proverb 4:23

And why is He need to disciplined me?

"Do not withhold discipline from a child; if you punish him with the rod, he will not die.
Punish him with the rod and save his soul from death." Proverb23:13-14

Cause He wants to save not only my life but my soul to the eternity.

So it's good to write blog (or have a habit of writing diary), cause it will help to analyze myself and get to know myself more unconsciously.

Memories are life lessons, only when you are able to know what is the truth and willing to fully accept the truth and find a way to make your life keep moving to a better path way, better direction, to be a better man.

I started to bull shit randomly again......better shut down 1st.,