So here comes to the end of the year 2011, i have nothing much to say. The whole year seemed to be all surrounded by Singapore. From the early of the year, prepared myself for Singapore. The mix feelings, i can't hardly to ignore. It pops out once a while when something similar trigger me. And the settling down at this island. Mentally and physically be prepared for quite a long period. From the basic needs to love, it seems all come clear now. It's been nine months i was working here. At times i still think that how actually i managed to go through all these. How? I have no answer. The only answer i could have is because of God. By the moment He leaded me, i might not know, i think i was still in the sea of self pity and self doubt. But when the heavy cloud gone, it's all clear. It was a lesson to learn. The only way that i can learn by experiencing. I just live.

Not forgetting too my initial dreams to be here, either to continue vet study or aim for mission, at the same time gaining working experience. Can see it clearly that career isn't my main concern in my life. I have no big passion dream for my career. Well, i might not be able to do any for both for the former dream in year 2011, but i still can carry forward to next year, or the following year again. Nothing is too late.

I have spoken to Wei Li, he said that next year there are going to have 2 missions at Indonesia. I am hoping to join one. For the vet course, i search it here but all it has is full time diploma course. I am not going back to full time study. Degree course available mostly at Australia and it's kinda expensive. I will pray about that again see how it should goes.

Yesterday my boss was doing informal appraisal with me, he was sorta giving advice saying i should have my goals on where my HR career wanna be. All in my mind was "i want to take care of animal. I don't give a shit of to think of serving in HR."

Then again, whether i like it or not, life goes on no matter i achieve my dream or not. It could be i am now fighting the process to achieve my dream? or it could be i am in the middle of reaching my dream? who knows. Or i might get something even better than what i planed.

JL told me that getting a dog is a huge commitment. It might refrain us from mobile around. But i really really like dog, and i can't be that selfish too if i can't take good care of them. OR maybe JL's mum can move to Miri too?? hahaha...just kidding.

Anyway, See ya next year!