I think most of the couple in a relationship sure wonder how come there is no secret textbook for courtship or so called relationship when they are having problems.

When I am having trouble in love, I have that kinda thinking too.

I have 3 serious relationships.
The 1^st happened in a young age, too young I should say; I don’t even know how to love myself.
The 2^nd came in a huge rush crush; I don’t even know what commitment is.
This one came in without a hint. To my surprise, it is the greatest I ever had. And I am just nice to be ready. ( Is this explain “the best always come when you are least expected?”)

Am I doing well in this? No. Not really. But there is no benchmark too to what extend it is called good enough or where is not good enough.

Sometime I have hesitation.
Especially when he talks rude to me.
And when he was so rational and sounded like I should not have putting myself in moody/emo/PMS mode.

But after a night rest, my hesitation gone.

And the same old feeling comes back again towards him like we never argued before.
This cycle has been repeated a few times since we started the 1^st one.
What I am trying to say here is there are a lot of works out for maintaining a good and healthy relationship.
There is no free lunch and there is no shortcut. Those are all honey coated lies.

For future…

There is plan in Him. Things are not allowed to happen without His permission. Meaning things that happened surely are allowed by Him. I just have to wait patiently and wait till He provides what I need. The good ones.