Calender

I prefer to blog here rather than the other blog. Think i can't monetize my blog cause i'm not so willing to share my thoughts with everyone. Not generous and open minded enough to do it.

Last night i found a piece of letter from my last year calender book. It was a letter for stanley. A letter that i wrote when i was moaning for his death. It describes how hard for me to accept his leaving. And how stupid i am to angry with a death person. I never remembered the date of his death only until last night. It's been more than a year.  But i felt like many many years already he left me. To be honest, he was the most caring guy. He would cook porridge for me when i was sick, he would put on vicks and massage my stomach when i had period pain, he would bring me to places that i wanna go, he would be supportive at all the time, he would accompany me to look for job...I'm not missing him. He was just part of my memories and no one will gonna take it back from me. It was my pass story. I thew the letter this morning. The ring he gave me was still there, and the key. I think i'm gonna throw it later when i go home.

The calender was full of note. Some of the columns had stars on it. It was stuck by me everytime i had a date with Jon. There were so many on it. Thanks to the book, i could even recall back the time i went to KL for the SIA interview which ended up i just went there to relax cause the interview been postponed. And i stayed at Alex's place, mad with Jon and made up my mind to give him up. Of course, not successful. Then the Dinner at Damai Resort, Redang trip, Melacca, then Indon missionary trip. The calender only filled until early of June. It was the time i went back to Sibu. The next agenda was my convocation.

Looked at the empty July, it was the time i got my 1st job after finished my University. Then August-Convo, September, October, November-It was the time i mess up everything. December-Confession. Jan-July'10- Forgiveness and worked it out together. August-Finally, the story ended up here.