Monday, September 6, 2010

No. I won't

I'm not that kinda gal that would cry months and months because of you dumping me.
I choose to continue my life as usual, just without you.
I was wondering just now, what would you think about me if you read my hahahaha post on the facebook.
I could imagine your expression when the time you claimed on me that i could let go a 6 years relationship in just a click of time. The words are just so weighty.
So here comes again this kinda expression appear in my mind when i tried to picture your response.
Would it be better for you if i can go on my life normal or even better, without you?
The main reason i didn't want to be active in facebook is because of you. Cause i'm afraid it will effect you. Cause of the words that you said before. I'm afraid you'll judge me again like that. So i gave myself a lot of lame excuses to not doing anything on my facebook which i feel i'm so stupid when i typed this out.
I see myself too important for you didn't i? Funny me. Stupid me.
I'll let you go, slowly.  Until one day in future, i can still give you a big hug and a sweetest smile when you bring alone your girlfriend to introduce to me. Or during your big day. Perhaps no hug anymore.
I trusted you as a guy that keep promise. I remembered what you've promise that night. So do i to you.

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