i talk a lot here. Recently. Breaking the previous achieves' record.  You know what? it was not a good thing. It shows that i have communication problem with human being. I lost the one who can listen to my stupid complains. And i finally admitted today, that i have problem. I'm not okay. Never since the day of my new status.  It is so hard for me to admit it cause i don't allow myself to be weak. I put everything on my own and thought i was still okay. It's my turn to say i couldn't take it anymore.