I want to go for the missionary trip.
Though i have not clear all the mess,
though i have no confidence to get the pass to have leaves,
though i have not discover the genuine motive to go there (which really makes me sick!)
I just know that i wanna be there.

Is it gonna work if i insisted?
I am afraid no.

...i guess i'm so wrong. I used to be so self centered. Thought i could have whatever i want with my hardwork...

Running into a blank wall.

Turn back turn back!!