The more i struggled to get rid of him, the more times he appeared in my mind. And the more frequent i would feel like why i am so pity?

Why har?

Yea, i know i'm still having crush on him.
At the same time i understand that he is not the right one. 

You see the above 2 statement. Isn't it so contradict?

Then how am i gonna solve that?
The later statement sure cannot change one, then only can change the 1st 1.
But how to control my feeling? Last time the call could last me for almost half year, how bout this time?
Another half year again?

Why God you want me to meet him again in this critical time?
Plus i see no point in why was he telling me all that.
(Maybe he would feel better after telling me all that! Like finally untie his knot!)
But why in the time i thought i could let go of everything liao then he appeared again?
Is there anything that You want to show me?
Is it my mistake to not pray 1st before making the decision instead of following my heart to meet him?

Haiya! so hate for the guys thing! So complicated la you guys!!!!!